its times likes these, when i can hear the rain against the window and the thunder rolling outside, when there are only about 3 or 4 drunken people yelling down the hall, when ive been alone in my room for the past 6 hours, when the drip from last night only tastes like blood, when the phone rings at 3am and theres no one there, when my neck hurts ( Read more... )

justin sansouci you are off of my list because youre going to put me on yours. i will hopefully see you monday.

nothing like a text message from a rockstar. it made my day :)

so im walking back from a psychology experiment where i answered multiple questionaires about my personality and behavior: marijuana use, parents expectations, and nightmares were among the various topics. yes my parents never thought i was good enough and i smoke weed to be cool and fit in, and to get rid of the nightmares. no. anyway, theres a ( Read more... )

i actually drank tonight for the first time since the whole mama sha-bang. the ironic thing is, she went out drinking tonight too ( Read more... )

why the fuck? Justin SanSouci, what are you thinking...scheduling shows in orlando the sunday before finals week? what the fuck is that shit about?

god damn.

i wish people would decide what the hell they are doing ( Read more... )

I was actually productive today instead of sleeping for hours when i got back from class, i actually did my homework. so now im almost all caught up and im sick of working. usually im the one studying at the last minute, tonight my friends decide to be losers and study so im bored as hell ( Read more... )

god bless the sound of glass breaking right outside my door at 1am.
god bless the drunken boys of osceola village 4 south.

and god bless the pop ups that keep me from doing anything in a timely manner on this damned computer. fuck you internet explorer. leave me alone.

i have entirely too much to do before friday. i have to make up a quiz in psych that i missed when mama drama was going down or else my grade will be a wonderful 67%. and thats not cool ( Read more... )

im not sure what to think or do anymore. all of my usual worries seem so trivial now. im scared that we did this for nothing, that nothing will be fixed and that she will start drinking again. im scared that the pills will have side effects and hurt her or cause her to hurt herself, and if they dont, im scared that she wont take them anyway. im ( Read more... )