I never jumped in and rescued you ( Read more... )

So what now? Do I lose that which I've worked so hard for? I rid myself of Kelsey, and somehow it doesn't seem quite enough to not make me worry. Here I am, finally having some clarity of thought, some realization of how deep my feelings run for Jen, and there it all goes. Perfect. I only hope she loves me as much as I love her, because if she ( Read more... )

Such a long month ahead of me. I have a LOT of work to do, and not a lot of time to do it in. I have to get my license (Obviously, things have been set back. Gonna go take the written test next week, wish me luck!) Then get the starter in my car. In addition to that, I have to get the head gasket on the plow before the snowfall, and the bolt and ( Read more... )

Well, it's Wednesday night. It's supposed to rain tomorrow, I hope it doesn't. I need to run to the bank and cash my check and set up an account. Also, I need to rake. It's been a long week ( Read more... )

This was a good weekend. I got to be with Jen with minimal interference. We got to sleep together (Well, somewhat, that may have bee the only thing lacking from this otherwise beautiful weekend) and I got to see her smile. Somehow, even when dad id making me feel like shit, just being hugged makes it all go away. I didn't feel like I had to cry ( ( Read more... )

What an aweful day. My grandfather woke up up this morning, quarter to 5 am. My great-grandmother was in critical condition. Things went down, and I ended up at the hospital. I held her hand, kissed her forehead a multitude of times, and told her how much I loved her. She moved, a lot, and used a lot of energy to open her eyes and look at me. Even ( Read more... )

Wow, what a long day. I got my room all clean! I can't believe how good it looks, I got rid of ALL the clutter (including moms pile of crap that used to be my desk) and wiped all the dust off of everything. It feels good to know I did it, all by myself. Also, the living room is done in the same fashion. I used antibacterial spray in the Swiffer Wet ( Read more... )

You know, some days you just want to forget it ever happened. I have a long day ahead of me, and I wish grandma would just go to bed. I'm glad Jen got back with Andrea, she really missed her. In other news, Jen is coming down here this weekend, and I'm really happy. I miss being able to hold her, to have her with me. This time, though I am busting ( Read more... )

I've had an interesting day...It started right when I left here, round about 3:30. I got home to find my mother on the kitchen floor, curled up in a corner, and a previously unopened bottle of wine empty on the floor in front of her. Apparently she couldn't take all the stress anymore, so she downed the whole bottle. She went on and on to me, ( Read more... )

I feel a lot better now, it's almost unbelieveable. You know, we needed to do that, to just talk things out, and there was no way around it. Things should always be out in the open like that, there isn't any easier way around it. I can't thank you enough for just letting out the truth, even though some of it was painful for the both of us ( Read more... )