well nothing really has been happening. went to ceals party last night, gunay came over after that finsihed school on friday. went shopping... mother broke my ring.....got given this really ugly necklace....bought gunay a birthday pressie (it's his bday on monday)........gonna buy some more shit of liv......bought the five stories falling ep ( Read more... )

i love you gunay. and not a day goes by where i'm not thankful that you're here because i know i couldn't cope without you. love you.

"if we have no love than my words are no more than a clanging gong ( Read more... )

well i thought i should update this again, i'm feeling better i don't really know what came over me i just had this whole night of feeling totally low and i just hated myself, i'm working really hard to get rid of these feelings, but they just keep coming back. i want to be happy more than anything, i want the pain to go away, i want my memories ( Read more... )

i feel like my life is getting shitter. like i can't control everything like everything is just slipping past me. i feel like i've lost hte remote control to my life and someone has accidentally sat on it and it's fastforwading through all the moments i want to chersih forever and there's nothing i can do about it. things keep passing me by and ( Read more... )

i don't understand it, i try my hardest to please everyone but it just seems like the harder i try, the less i please anyone and i don't know what i can do to make anything better anymore.

what annoys me most ( Read more... )

i have decided, after gunay finding my LJ and not being happy with some of my posts as he believes they are "personal information that i shouldn't let other people (mainly adam) read" and that i shouldn't post them on the internet, so i privatise ( i know i spelt that wrong but you get my drift........i hope) most of my posts. that means my ( Read more... )

i'm really reluctant to say this, but this are going good. it seems that everytime is ay that however things fuck up but fuck it, they are. things with gunay are really good and it's all good. nothing much really has happened much. i can't wait till this weekend. i'm seeing gunay on friday night maybe sunday and sunday night we're (yes him too ( Read more... )

ahhhh! it seems i can't do anything but fuck things up. just because i'm a moody bitch i seem to fuck things up with gunay. i'm such a dropkick! why do i do shit like this! why can't i just be normal and have a normal fucking relationship why do i have to fuck things up.seriously i fuck things up so much that i wonder why he still loves me. he ( Read more... )