i wonder if i'm not ambitious enough sometimes :p stupid flaws

i spent like five hundred bux today on stuff i probably really didn't need. whoops ( Read more... )

i'm in chatanooga Tennessee! visiting my moms side of the fam i havent seen since i was 3! theyve been so nice to me. things are so different down south, every stranger on the streets will talk w/ u as if u two were old pals. earlier i went to one of the best aquariems in the country. mad pix soon to come! i wish i was a people person. i should be ( Read more... )

my job is killing me.
someone said something interesting to me last night. weird topic. he mentioned that there could be few worse things than laying on your death bed while coming to the realization that your life served no purpose.

i like to fall into them :o)

the coolest thing just happened to me ( Read more... )

stuff is cool. i'm doing mad good in skewl. got the 2nd highest grade in my class on my communications exam. got a 98 on my stat test too, yayy. i bought a bass, came to the conclusion that renting 1 4 2 long was a waste of chedarr. i love her, she's pretty, but i havent named her yet. i thougt up some cool stuff to paint on er if i get bored but i ( Read more... )

cigarettes smoked today - zero
poor decisions made - countless

lolzz

i have this problem. i can't be myself around people from fear of unworthiness. i can't accept that anyone would like me for who i am because i don't even like myself, and that inhibits me. i don't even give people the chance to dislike the real me anymore, wow what a pussy i am. what the fuck am i supposed to do about something like that? ugh. >:O

saturday is gonna be ill. i hope! fata<3