there are few things in this world nicer than thinking that you're wanted, that someone appreciates you
there are few things more painful than realizing that you never were
lets get fucked up and die

my head is swirling, it's been carried off in the sky
and where it lands is where it lands
i guess that i
will get another head and get on with my life
leave you somewhere beneath the waves of time

hi livejournal, how're you? i'm okaayy. i've been for the most part clean for the past few weeks, i'm trying to get a new job as a security guard in gated communities. it's like the sickest job on the face of the planet, you get hella hours, and you just get to sit on your ass all day in a booth that has AC, a tv, a fridge etc. i still have my ( Read more... )

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k, so like best night of my life barely describes the events which have unfolded on todays' adventure

I retraced the steps that lead me here
but nothing lives behind me.

so i lie in this field bathed in the light that loves me,
with nothing left to lose.
three tears i've saved for you.

will you be my, be my beloved?
will you help, help me to get through?
will you be my, be my destruction?
will you help, help me to be through?

today was chill. picked up some bud with matty and katty. they were nice enough to drive me to bellmore so i could meet nikki's parents before the show this thursday. then cristan picked us up and we went back to her place where i was introduced to kay, who seems mad chill. blythe later showed up and she seems like a cool kid too. went back to kay' ( Read more... )

went out east to the hamptons to go to the strawberry festival with my friend matt and his girlfriend. saw the fireworks, ate way too much junk food and all thar jazz, twas cool. went to the beach afterwards, it was really nice and serene. going from a chaotic festival, a synthetic environment, man made scenario...to a place of pure nature is ( Read more... )

i saw some old friends tonight, oh my gawdz how i love random cooincidences.