I'm bacccck! Well, sort of ;)
Considering that my journal will never be to the level of former glory as before, I guess it doesn't matter much what I do with it. The layout and icon vanished (probably down the rabbit hole with Alice) and I don't really have much to say. So I guess I'll tell you how my summer has been??
Warning, very lonnng
Like almost ALL of you know, Clinton broke up with me about a week before summer started. Let's not get into that NOVEL of a story.
So, my BFF Will helped me keep my mind off of that Asian midget.. Met alot of people that I'm very happy to know, as cheesy as that sounds. They all really helped me get over Clinton and make my summer really great. I'm sooo thankful for that..
I had sworn myself off to guys for a while, (against Paige's and everyones advice haha) and ended up breaking a few hearts that I really hoped I never had to break. Alot of people that I was close to in a pletonic sort of way before came forward with feelings that I didn't feel in return.. Easy way to make or break a 'friendship'. But anyways, in the course of me swearing off this non-existent boyfriend, I met Jonathan.
Let me explain a couple of things that make him different from every single guy that I turned down this summer.
He doesn't have any past connection to alot of the things I do. Forrr example, I basically met him through Will and them, and he works with alot of my friends, but they arn't the main people he hangs with. BUT he does fit in with them easily which some of those guys didn't even goto the same school as me... Which all means I'm not going to be doing the same thing with the same people. UNLIKE CLINTON, DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED...
It ends out that we've had little crushes on each other for at least a year, which if you ask me is a BIG coincidence, knowing how many people there are in our school and plus the fact we didn't really know each other.
The first night I talked to him, we ended up talking for about 8 hours on the phone.. Even longer conversations on following nights. DING DING DING I've finally found someone that I can really communicate with, that I can share things with him that I can probably only share with a special few. The list of the things we have in common is endless, we even made a connection book (haha not really). I've never found someone that I've ever had THIS MUCH in common with.
FOR A MAJOR EXAMPLE, we were almost both born on Valentines day. We were both c-sections... I came 5 months early (the 13th), and he was supposed to be born on the 14 (but since he was a c-section, his parents had leeway on when he was going ot be born). So what happened was because it was almost midnight (the 14th) and I was ready to be born, my dad realized it was almost Valentines day (perfect birthday for a girl) and told the doctors to go wash his hands so I can be born on the 13th. Jonathan's parents had the oppisite thought, about how it wouldn't be that great for a boy to have his birthday on Valentines. So HIS parents had labour induced on the 13th.
Long story short, he's only ONE day older than I am. I really never beleived in that whole 'horoscope' 'astrology' stuff, but it's almost weird how we are almost always on the same track of mind or whatever you want to call it, and how we're uncannily alike.. Everyone says we're perfect for each other :D
Plusss, he's really open minded. Ecspecially about things that I do.. Like the food I eat. Haha... And we both like all the same music basically, so there's a double in my cd collection ;)
Not to mention I can carry on an intelligent conversation with him! He actually has brains.. Unlike Clinton, who would try to fake it by wearing glasses and sweater vests. (And I'm not kidding at all, he spent like 80 dollars on glasses with no perscriptions). Plus he's musical, which I know any girl will agree with me when I say that's a plus.
AND ALSO THIS ONE IS ACTUALLY TALLER THAN ME
hahaha by like, 11-10 inches. I LIKE THIS DRASTIC CHANGE!!!
I could go on about how WONDERFUL he is and how I've never met anyone better for me right now or how he's changing my life for the better.. But I'll let you fill the blanks in ;D
I never felt this way with Clinton. I was always insecure about everything he did (once a cheater always a cheater, as I found out the hard way) and plus this one isn't pshyco. And won't stalk me. Haha. But with Clinto, I don't know.. I guess I always knew from day one it was doomed. I know high school relationships never last, but I guess I'm a bit naive sometimes (as Jonathan likes to point out to me).
OH YES back to my summer. Just alot of new things I guess. Went to Denny's alot haha. Just alot of good memories.. But it sucks because since alot of my friends are Seniors this year they'll be gone before I know it :(:(
I just need to say one more thing. I don't even know what I was doing with Clinton. He basically stole my whole life away from me.. I always refer to the time I spent with him time wasted. He had no drive to do anything. No initiative. Which means this rubbed off to me... Plus the fact that he PURPOSELY restricted me from excelling in school and spending ANY time with my friends.
I need to stop being so stubborn, ecscpecially when it comes to things that end up hurting me more than they have helped in the end. ::COUGHCLINTONCOUGH::
I'm not sorry it ended the way it did.
K that's it, if anyone even remembers I have a journal I'll be surprised.. So PLEASE PLEASE comment :D
P.S. I recently started listening to MUSIC AGAIN (not that gay stuff that Clinton forced upon me) and all thanks to Jonathan. So, I feel like it's my duty to put some lyrics down from a new band I simply fell in love with. It has nearly NO effect without the music, but I don't really care.
They sound weird and stuff. But I must say it's a VERY catchy song. Here goes.
Hold my-hand it's shaking-bad, I'm go-ing to-the doc
I'll pay-him to fix me-up, I think I've-got e-nough (no no no)
No am-bul-ance, no costs too-much.. We'll take a van,
If they-can't fix me no-one can,
And if they fix-it, no-one can't
(want you to take me to the)
H,
Take me to the O,
Want you to take me to the S,
Take me to the P,
Want you to take me to the I-T-A-L,
Want you to take me to the HOSSS-PIT-ALLL
(hospital)
Now, I'm loosing blood from my veins
They're slowly emp-ty-ing
I'm both-ered by this crimson red,
to the color of blood
To the color of a b,
To the color of L,
To the color of a O,
To the color of O,
To the color of Deep crimson red,
From a little bitty acc-i-dent
(accident)
I scraped up-my face
Bounced my cheek off the floor
Cause' anything worth doing
Is worth getting hurt for
I've made no mistakes
I've never learned from that
I got no regrets
Wanna do it again,
Do it A
G
A
I
NNNNN
So you can take me to the H
Take me to the O
Want you to take me to the S
Take me to the P
Want you to take me to the I-T-A-L
Want you to take me to the hos-pitallll
Cause' it's the color of a B,
Color of L,
The color of O,
Color of O,
Cause' it's the color of Deep crimson red,
From a little bitty acc-i-dent
(etc.)
So yeah. Interesting song haha.
Warning, very lonnng
Like almost ALL of you know, Clinton broke up with me about a week before summer started. Let's not get into that NOVEL of a story.
So, my BFF Will helped me keep my mind off of that Asian midget.. Met alot of people that I'm very happy to know, as cheesy as that sounds. They all really helped me get over Clinton and make my summer really great. I'm sooo thankful for that..
I had sworn myself off to guys for a while, (against Paige's and everyones advice haha) and ended up breaking a few hearts that I really hoped I never had to break. Alot of people that I was close to in a pletonic sort of way before came forward with feelings that I didn't feel in return.. Easy way to make or break a 'friendship'. But anyways, in the course of me swearing off this non-existent boyfriend, I met Jonathan.
Let me explain a couple of things that make him different from every single guy that I turned down this summer.
He doesn't have any past connection to alot of the things I do. Forrr example, I basically met him through Will and them, and he works with alot of my friends, but they arn't the main people he hangs with. BUT he does fit in with them easily which some of those guys didn't even goto the same school as me... Which all means I'm not going to be doing the same thing with the same people. UNLIKE CLINTON, DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED...
It ends out that we've had little crushes on each other for at least a year, which if you ask me is a BIG coincidence, knowing how many people there are in our school and plus the fact we didn't really know each other.
The first night I talked to him, we ended up talking for about 8 hours on the phone.. Even longer conversations on following nights. DING DING DING I've finally found someone that I can really communicate with, that I can share things with him that I can probably only share with a special few. The list of the things we have in common is endless, we even made a connection book (haha not really). I've never found someone that I've ever had THIS MUCH in common with.
FOR A MAJOR EXAMPLE, we were almost both born on Valentines day. We were both c-sections... I came 5 months early (the 13th), and he was supposed to be born on the 14 (but since he was a c-section, his parents had leeway on when he was going ot be born). So what happened was because it was almost midnight (the 14th) and I was ready to be born, my dad realized it was almost Valentines day (perfect birthday for a girl) and told the doctors to go wash his hands so I can be born on the 13th. Jonathan's parents had the oppisite thought, about how it wouldn't be that great for a boy to have his birthday on Valentines. So HIS parents had labour induced on the 13th.
Long story short, he's only ONE day older than I am. I really never beleived in that whole 'horoscope' 'astrology' stuff, but it's almost weird how we are almost always on the same track of mind or whatever you want to call it, and how we're uncannily alike.. Everyone says we're perfect for each other :D
Plusss, he's really open minded. Ecspecially about things that I do.. Like the food I eat. Haha... And we both like all the same music basically, so there's a double in my cd collection ;)
Not to mention I can carry on an intelligent conversation with him! He actually has brains.. Unlike Clinton, who would try to fake it by wearing glasses and sweater vests. (And I'm not kidding at all, he spent like 80 dollars on glasses with no perscriptions). Plus he's musical, which I know any girl will agree with me when I say that's a plus.
AND ALSO THIS ONE IS ACTUALLY TALLER THAN ME
hahaha by like, 11-10 inches. I LIKE THIS DRASTIC CHANGE!!!
I could go on about how WONDERFUL he is and how I've never met anyone better for me right now or how he's changing my life for the better.. But I'll let you fill the blanks in ;D
I never felt this way with Clinton. I was always insecure about everything he did (once a cheater always a cheater, as I found out the hard way) and plus this one isn't pshyco. And won't stalk me. Haha. But with Clinto, I don't know.. I guess I always knew from day one it was doomed. I know high school relationships never last, but I guess I'm a bit naive sometimes (as Jonathan likes to point out to me).
OH YES back to my summer. Just alot of new things I guess. Went to Denny's alot haha. Just alot of good memories.. But it sucks because since alot of my friends are Seniors this year they'll be gone before I know it :(:(
I just need to say one more thing. I don't even know what I was doing with Clinton. He basically stole my whole life away from me.. I always refer to the time I spent with him time wasted. He had no drive to do anything. No initiative. Which means this rubbed off to me... Plus the fact that he PURPOSELY restricted me from excelling in school and spending ANY time with my friends.
I need to stop being so stubborn, ecscpecially when it comes to things that end up hurting me more than they have helped in the end. ::COUGHCLINTONCOUGH::
I'm not sorry it ended the way it did.
K that's it, if anyone even remembers I have a journal I'll be surprised.. So PLEASE PLEASE comment :D
P.S. I recently started listening to MUSIC AGAIN (not that gay stuff that Clinton forced upon me) and all thanks to Jonathan. So, I feel like it's my duty to put some lyrics down from a new band I simply fell in love with. It has nearly NO effect without the music, but I don't really care.
They sound weird and stuff. But I must say it's a VERY catchy song. Here goes.
Hold my-hand it's shaking-bad, I'm go-ing to-the doc
I'll pay-him to fix me-up, I think I've-got e-nough (no no no)
No am-bul-ance, no costs too-much.. We'll take a van,
If they-can't fix me no-one can,
And if they fix-it, no-one can't
(want you to take me to the)
H,
Take me to the O,
Want you to take me to the S,
Take me to the P,
Want you to take me to the I-T-A-L,
Want you to take me to the HOSSS-PIT-ALLL
(hospital)
Now, I'm loosing blood from my veins
They're slowly emp-ty-ing
I'm both-ered by this crimson red,
to the color of blood
To the color of a b,
To the color of L,
To the color of a O,
To the color of O,
To the color of Deep crimson red,
From a little bitty acc-i-dent
(accident)
I scraped up-my face
Bounced my cheek off the floor
Cause' anything worth doing
Is worth getting hurt for
I've made no mistakes
I've never learned from that
I got no regrets
Wanna do it again,
Do it A
G
A
I
NNNNN
So you can take me to the H
Take me to the O
Want you to take me to the S
Take me to the P
Want you to take me to the I-T-A-L
Want you to take me to the hos-pitallll
Cause' it's the color of a B,
Color of L,
The color of O,
Color of O,
Cause' it's the color of Deep crimson red,
From a little bitty acc-i-dent
(etc.)
So yeah. Interesting song haha.