The Letter. Gasp.
Dear Sam,
I wanted to do something nice for you today. Getting you a gift seemed like too much when I took our current relationship into account, and I decided to buy you a card.
I always knew we were different from other couples, but I don't think it really hit me until I was standing in Hallmark and trying to find a card that could accurately describe my feelings for you.
I gave up after an hour of reading and opted to do this instead. Hopefully you won't mind. Its been a while since I've written you anything worth reading. Honestly, I'm not sure that this could really be called worth reading, but if you've made it this far in, I guess I could be doing a lot worse.
I think its stupid that people need to designate a day to try to show how much they love each other. If you really love someone, you need a lot more than a single day. When I look at it that way, today doesn't mean very much to me. Its one day out of three hundred and sixty five that I can use to return all of the love that you've given me.
But, since it is Valentines Day, there are a few things I'd like to tell you.
I want you to know how happy you make me. There is no better and no other for me. Sam, you make me feel loved every day. You give me a reason to try.
I fight harder knowing that I have you waiting for me. At the end of the day, all I want is to come home to you. Everything else is nice, but it doesn't matter to me the way that you do.
I hate to admit it, but I think you were right. Taking our time with our relationship is a good idea. While you were away, I made a lot of choices that I'm not proud of. I forgot what it meant to be intimate with someone. You've made me see that I can be close to someone without sleeping with them. Now I know that when we're ready, it'll mean something more.
I can't pretend that it doesn't drive me crazy, because it does, but we both know how I am. I'm an impulsive mess who expects to get everything she wants the very second she has the notion to desire it. I'm spoiled, and I'm pushy, but if I've been trying too hard I hope that it just shows you how badly I want to be your girlfriend again. I know that someday soon, I will be. Until then, I'm content to be near you.
I love you. I always have and I always will.
Lately, I've been starting to realize how much that has grown since the days when we were skipping classes to make out with each other. We're not the same people. Our lives changed as we did, but you're the constant for me. The one person who I can count on to love me in spite of everything that comes our way, no matter what.
And I promise you, I'll always do the same.
Happy Valentines Day,
Carly