the anti-suicide of the snow

[endwhysee]

notice how all poetry, usually the good stuff
begins with a verb. suggested action?

end with a conclusion, some action then ended, at rest.

this I scribbled on my bright yellow paper, on the train, back from Brooklyn. This of course is not that, just words.

loss words stirred inside
the thickness of my language
atached ambiguous

so much so that

Comments

[seandiablo]

"I need to let go of my punishment. My own hate. My own mean shadow. Beat it up, clobber it, with a little love."

please do.

you deserve to love yourself.

Oh you will love this

[endwhysee]

I realized this while watching the View. I realized my title if I were in the starting over house, would be "deanna: trying to stop hating and punishing herself for having a body that failed her".

thanks, mang.

[hypallagefever]

this entire entry is so beautiful and so full of powerful insights.

i especially like this one:

Over the past
two years, I've learned that strength is just a process of shutting
down. Strength is a way that we get through things by detaching
ourselves from what hurts. Fuck that.

i love you. xoxo

I know

[endwhysee]

She wrote that about her husband. My new friend's. I think it's one of the smartest things I have ever read, too.

You'll like this

[nemo_omen]

Frank Herbert, the author of Dune, came up with a good one called "The Litany Against Fear":

I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain.

Mmmmm ... sci-fi-self-help

Re: You'll like this

[endwhysee]

Fear is my little bitch.
I will spank it.
I will murder it with cookies and milk.

Hopefully then it will go away.

And...hopefully people won't stop teaching me these things.

Thank you.