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Yet again I find myself with a uncontrolable erge to die. I am yet again sick. Cold this time, at least I can keep food down. Stuffy nose, brain ache, fever (102.9. Beth keeps telling me to take meds. I don't take medication if I dont HAVE to because it lowers my immune system, or so my mom used to tell me. MmMmMmMmMm Pizza pop. I just had ( Read more... )

I picked to be alone for a while. As much as it hurts to be without Beth. I have to do this. The thing she doesnt know. The thing I don't know how to tell her. The thing I am ashamed of. I am hopeing she will read in here and understand that its one of the reasons I need to be alone right now. I was raped last week, by someone I don't know, someone ( Read more... )

Today I head reluctantly back to school. Unhappy, cold, and tired lol. Yeah normal day for meeeee. Well at least I dont have to walk. Thank-god for Ben and his beautiful peice of shit:). I was up at 6am praying to the good Lord he would bless me with another day of sleeping in and chatting. I guess he has other things planned for me on this wet ( Read more... )

I havn't updated this lately...and I don't have much to say tonight. We had no school cause of the snow today, yay go us!! haha. I wanted Uptown Girls tonight, alone, meh it was pretty good. I helped Kaitlen with some personal problems, shes such an amazing chick. I pray everyday her man treats her good. She deserves the best in life. Tonight was ( Read more... )

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HAHAHA today was boxing day, everything in stores goes onsale today so people can start restacking for the new year and blah blah blah. So I went out with my fresh 225$ and I ended up spending it all on other people. OK fine, not it all but a good 100 bucks of it:S lol oh well Merry Squidmas to all. Another year is almost gone my friends. What sha' ( Read more... )

Ok does it even feel like Christmas? It doesnt to me, X-mas to me=smiling, cheering, praying for the one thing i truely want, opening presents and being with the ones you love ( Read more... )