Tonight

[energyneophyte]

I am missing a bunch of people. My family is fractured and my heart is hurting. I feel like the little 7 year old all over again, wondering why only half of my family was together. Back then i wondered all the time where my Daddy was. Tonight the little girl inside of me is crying out for her Papa. She wants someone to hold her and read her stories

Comments

[beth_]

*hugs*
My heart goes out to you. It's not a fun place to be. Unfortunately, there's no magic solution to make you feel better -- only inner strength and the love & caring of friends. Fortunately, you have tons of both.
*more hugs*

[energyneophyte]

You are right in one very important aspect, i do have amazing loving and caring friends.

Thanks beth

[southern_femme]

Sometimes it is okay to take time for yourself.. time to enjoy and practice what is close to your heart. Take your time and enjoy... don't crack... the world isn't worth it.. but, you are worth the time to mend and adapt.

xoxoxo,
S.

[energyneophyte]

Worth is a strange concept, first you have to believe in it in order for it to have meaning.

Thanks Gorgeous Lady

[shdwkitten]

So do me a favor......take the mask off, throw it to the ground and make sure to throw it hard enough to shatter it into a thousand pieces. Quit holding things in. Stop pretending you are okay. Tell the truth when asked. Say "no I am not okay." It is okay to tell people what you need from them. Yell, scream and let it all out. Holding things in is no better than eating a poison. All it does it fill you full of toxins and slowly kills you.

You cannot change the past but you can shape the outcome of things to come. Do not dwell on things gone and do not dread those things to come as you cannot control either of them. But you can control the actions of the very moments that are happening to you right now.

We love you and you are always welcomed to come hear to yell and scream and curl up with us. I will even take time out from homework to colour with you. *hugs*

[energyneophyte]

Call me tomorrow if you can.

[efire360]

Seriously, screaming, crying and letting your heart wrench out of place is exactly what you should do. How else are you going to move forward when you haven't let it go? I have a four-foot tall teddy bear that I've had since I was sixteen. When I feel that upset and alone, I still cuddle up to him and cry in his fur. Sometimes you just have to do it. I prefer to do it alone than with other people, but you just have to do it sometime or you'll end up accidentally dumping it on the next person you care about.