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englshivy

Existential crisis part 2

Dec 31, 2005 13:08

So, a few weeks ago I posted about my existential crisis, which is ongoing. How many blog entries on the interweb do you think are about existential crises? It's humbling to think just how not-unique my journal is. And I think that probably implies that I am not that unique myself, either. Which, oddly enough, is a little bit comforting ( Read more... )

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junebelle December 31 2005, 20:08:52 UTC

Do it, do it, do it!

englshivy January 1 2006, 04:04:09 UTC

I will I will I will! I hope. I'm so long out of school, I may be a mite rusty.

smandal December 31 2005, 21:11:34 UTC

Is this an existential crisis, or more a meditation on what worthwhile thing you want to dedicate yourself to?

The questioning of "worthwhileness" itself would be an existential crisis, IMHO.

englshivy December 31 2005, 23:13:34 UTC

You're probably right, but "existential crisis" just sounds too cool not to co-opt. Also, I guess I was using it just a touch ironically, since existential crises are luxuries and I am pretty firmly middle-class, so calling anything about my life a "crisis" is kind of funny.

smandal January 1 2006, 02:15:08 UTC

Eh, one doesn't need to be rich to worry about what to do with one's self.

Also, after a while, the cost of worrying about what to do is greater than the difference in benefit between alternatives. If you settle on something sufficiently challenging, you'll likely find the same [whatever] (beauty/satisfaction/closeness to God/etc.) as you would have with a possibly superior choice.

englshivy January 1 2006, 04:03:33 UTC

You know, I haven't done much thinking along those lines. I guess it is fallacious thinking to imagine that if I end up in a line of work that isn't my very heart's desire, I can't ever be satisfied, isn't it?

So, the idea is just to jump in with both feet even if you're not sure it's what you want to do forever?

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englshivy January 1 2006, 04:11:23 UTC

That was my thinking, too (about the nurturing/book larnin' duality).

I think the next thing I will need to do is study for the GRE. *shudder* I should probably take a class or at least get a book or something.

mac6uffin December 31 2005, 22:21:23 UTC

You would be good at it, from what I know of you online.

At least you have an idea of what to do. I am going to post something about this soon.

englshivy January 1 2006, 04:07:16 UTC

Well, thanks. I like to think I would be good at it. I was actually in therapy for several months in late '04 early '05 (to deal with anxiety about having another baby), and I keep thinking "I could do for other people what she did for me."

And it looks like you may have figured it out, no?

mac6uffin January 1 2006, 04:33:43 UTC

Yeah never used counseling before this year (it is still this year right?)

We shall see about myself.

mastermerk January 23 2006, 19:16:41 UTC

Good luck. Listening to other people's issues takes balls. Large, mellon-sized balls. Go forth and conquer.

englshivy January 24 2006, 03:52:09 UTC

Well, shit. I don't have large, melon-sized balls at all! I guess I'm screwed. :(