of which i still suffer from to this day:

How to Sleep

Let your mountainous forehead
with its veins of bright ore
ease down, the deep line
between your brows flatten,
unruffle the small muscles
below your temples, above
your jaws, let the grimace
muscles in your cheekbones
go, the weeping muscles
sealing your eyes. Die into
the pillow, calm in the knowledge
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its been a week since i posted anything here, and almost two weeks since i posted anything of substance. I guess this is  a common complaint i have with myself, the fact that it takes me a while to actually want to do something. I want to blog, but  i dont really have much to say. This in turn fucks up the will to write because you end up writing ( Read more... )

I read somewheere that "to master yourself is true power" yeah that sounds right. I want true power. If anything im saying im an ambitious nutcase. It shall come. It shall come.

So all of me, why not take all of me -
the one with so many certificates,
the failure, the one who can't cope,
the boy who never grew up,
the boy who grew up too early;

strong silent one, son-but-not-father,
one who believes, one who'd like to,
one who can't, one who'd never say,
he who never shows his feelings,
he who wears his heart on his sleeve;

man who ( Read more... )

The City

Your poems are a dark city centre.
Your novels, your stories, your journals, are suburbs
Of this big city.
The hotels are lit like office blocks all night
With scholars, priests, pilgrims. It's at night
Sometimes I drive through. I just find
Myself driving through, going slow, simply
Roaming in my own darkness, pondering
What you did. ( Read more... )

Love After Love

The time will come
when, with elation
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror
and each will smile at the other's welcome,

and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ( Read more... )

Insomnia attacked again. After what seemed like two days without it, i thought id be okay, but now it suddenly came back. I think i went to bed at around 9am this morning and i feel like shit. It not the most sublime feeling in the world when you wake up with a cold sweat and you feel your heart racing. And no, this want because of a nightmare or ( Read more... )

i found another snake in my room today. (okay green-minded thinkers, i mean a real snake.) its probably a garden snake so it doesnt poison or anything and its pretty small. Suffice to say  i drove it out of the house. Must be taking shelter from the rain.

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I wish i was able to get out of the house today. I missed the watering hole session ( Read more... )

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Since schools out for the next ten days because of some stupid korean exchange student, i have to now find things to do to keep my mind off a lot of things. Usually i had school and malate work for that , but stupid korean student comes in and fucks everything up. Im super pissed at him/her/it.

as a friend of mine said on facebook: Tanginang mga ( Read more... )