After a long day of recording, Gackt decided to go to bed to get some rest. He walked in his room and took a deep breath. There was a soothing fragrance coming from his scented candles.
Gackt blew out the candles and quickly went to bed. That night he had a familiar dream. It was one that he had in once before. In the dream Gackt was surrounded by trees, sitting on grass. He had a paper in pencil beside. He had been writing the lyrics to a song. In his dream there was a little girl playing and she approached and gave him a flower and said “That will be your last song”
Gackt didn’t understand why the girl said that. Gackt called out to her but there was no answer. The girl had simply disappeared. Everything turned white after that, Gackt had woken up from his slumber.
Gackt: “That dream…….I had it once before but why did I dream about it again?”
Gackt was feeling a bit uneasy. The last time Gackt had that dream was some time before he was asked to leave Malice Mizer. But what could it mean this time? Gackt stepped outside for a moment and started gazing at the moon. Having that dream brought back memories from his Malice Mizer days. He hadn’t spoken to any of the members ever since he left the band. Since he had trouble finding some rest Gackt decided to play some darts to help relax. By next morning Gackt found himself feeling worse than he did the night before. He sensed something was wrong. Gackt right away gave a call to all his friends and family. All was well but Gackt couldn’t shake this uneasy feeling that he had. It was the calm before the storm Gackt could sense that something was not right but soon Gackt would find the answer that he was longing to hear.
Just as he suspected the news was not good. A week later Gackt was looking at the newspaper and saw the news of Kami’s passing. Gackt knew it; he knew something was wrong with a love one. Gackt was mizerable and filled with guilt. In an instant burst into tears and barricaded himself inside the studio asking himself “Why? Why didn’t I call Kami?” While Gackt was making the phone calls he asked someone about Mana, Kozi, Yu-ki and Kami. They were all fine at least that was what he was told. But even so Gackt felt that maybe there was something that could have been done if he called Kami.
Days, Weeks passed and Gackt still wouldn’t come up from his studio. It was like a bird locked up in its cage. There was no way of getting through to him. Would this really be it for Gackt? It had been months since Kami’s death but Gackt was still isolated in that room. One night Gackt had that familiar dream once again but this time it was a little different. As the girl was leaving Gackt said: “No this isn’t the last song. I still have much to do.” The girl smiled as she left. There were butterflies fluttering by the grass fields where Gackt was. Gackt could almost feel Kami’s presence; it was as if Kami was telling him that it was ok. He felt that Kami was smiling upon him. Gackt knew that this was not farewell that one day they will meet again.
Still filled misery over the loss, Gackt decided that it was time that he left the studio. Gackt had opened the door and the first he noticed was his band members were there waiting for him. His family was deeply concern for him. As he walked out the door they all rushed out and gave him a hug and welcome him back. When everyone was done greeting him You went and gave Gackt something to eat. Gackt has been locked up in the room so long and didn’t remember about eating. Gackt ate every single thing that was on the plate. Gackt said “Arigato. Gomene. I’m sorry to worry everyone. But now I am back.” Gackt smiled at everyone and continued saying “We have much work to do. We need to continue recording tomorrow. There’s something I want to do today.”
You: “What are you planning to do today?”
Gackt smiled and said “It’s a S-E-C-R-E-T. *laughs* So don’t worry about me. I’ll be back in the afternoon and tell everyone what the surprise is.”
You and the others sensed that everything was ok with Gackt so they had no objection to what he said. They were glad to see Gackt ready to get some fresh air.
Gackt went out for a drive. Driving always seemed to help him clear his thoughts and bring new ideas for his music. Whenever he would have trouble writing his music Gackt would get his car keys and just drive where the road would take him. It didn’t matter how far; Gackt would just keep on driving until inspiration would hit him. This time he drove out not for his music but because he had something planned to for his family. The surprise he mentioned before.
He looked at the blue sky and new found a nice place to make a stop. With him he took a pen and paper. Gackt started to draw design of jewelry. Gackt’s surprise was to give each one his family members a jewelry or accessory that was made of onyx. The power of the black stone is said to protect you from harm. Of course it would take sometime for it to be made so Gackt decided to head for the supermarket to get ingredients for dinner.
As Gackt picking up the ingredients in the store he went towards the frozen food section and saw the vanilla ice-cream. He playfully placed on his head and tried to balance it. He laughed and the placed the ice-cream in his cart.
Gackt: “Hmm….now let’s see what’s missing? Ah yes the pork belly.”
Gackt went towards the back to get his meat because that’s where the best ones were. That’s what Gackt believed. He went to the counter to pay for the items and looked at his watch.
Gackt: “If I hurry I should get everything done by seven. I better call You to let him know”
As Gackt finished putting everything his car he picked up his cell phone and called You.
Gackt: “You let everyone know that dinner is on me today.”
You: “Sure no problem. I’ll let tell everyone. When will you be back?”
Gackt: “I’m on my way back.”
You: “Drive safely.”
Gackt: “I will.”
Gackt returned home and prepared dinner and then set up the table for everyone. Everyone was seated and all waited patiently to see what Gackt had planned.
“I’m sure you are all wondering what the surprise is.” He paused for a moment and continued saying. “Before I left I promised that I would tell about it but…..you won’t get to see it…
Before he can finish what he was saying everyone says “Ahhhhh~~”
Gackt: “Now to be fair I only said I would tell you about it. You will get to see it just not today. *laughs* Today I designed something special for all of you. It’s something to show you all how much I care for your safety and well being and the reason why you can not see it it’s because it’s still in the process of being made. Until then just look forward to it.”
You: “We know. We feel the same way about you too Gackt.”
Everyone smiled and looked at Gackt. They held their glass of wine and made a toast.
Gackt: “Tomorrow we shall resume recording and make preparations for the up coming tour.”
As planned they continued recording. Months past and GacktJOB member received their gift from Gackt. The first concert from the Mars tour was to be held that day. It was 6am and Gackt decided to put on the neko neko costume. As Gackt was putting on the costume You had approached him. Gackt turned around and said “Shouldn’t you be resting?”
You: “I should be telling you that. Where are you off to this time?”
Gackt: “I’m going to say hi to everyone.”
You: “Dressed like that?”
Gackt nodded. “It will be fun”
You: Well then I’ll tag along with you. *grabs his camera*
They were walking in the streets as people passed by all were looking at Gackt with a strange look. No one had a clue who was in the neko neko costume. Gackt waved to see if he could get people’s attention but it didn’t seem to work. You laughed and took pictures as Gackt continued waving. After the 4th roll of film Gackt told You that it was time they made their return to the concert hall to have last minute rehearsals. Rehearsals were very rigorous but it was all worth it to see the smile of his dears. Gackt and crew wanted to give the fans a show to remember. For this they made sure to squeeze in as much time in rehearsal as possible.
It was time for the concert to begin. Gackt was very anxious. He took a peak at the crowd while he was backstage and thought: they say a picture has a thousand words. Well my dears let me into your hearts; let me inspire you with my music.
Gackt wanted to reach out to his fans and convey his thoughts his feelings. He wanted to encourage people to pursue their dreams. Gackt felt that he could achieve his goal through his music. No one knows what the future may holds but as Gackt looked at his fans he felt he had finally returned home.