I guess this is what all the rush is about. To watch us all claw away at the walls and watch eyes turn red and tempers rise. I'm treading carefully and not expecting much. I have to commemorate him doing a good job programming me. It was a unique script that would gain the envy and jealousy of bill gates. I find out more and more about my ( Read more... )

I'm missing some of the moments in life that I was responsible for making and and I guarantee the memory that has taken its place wasn't of anything of more importance, in fact it was something that could of waited and only highlights the negative self centered characteristics I try and play off as not having. When you agree to be somewhere and ( Read more... )

Look at it this way: it could always be worse. The sad thing is I keep finding out how much easier I had it as time passes. You don't notice the months changing until you're at a new year. Is this really it for me? What else is necessary to have that opportunity. I know better than to expect fairness or an equal shot, not in this world, and in this ( Read more... )

It's taken some time for me to feel comfortable representing myself here. This was once a forum for myself, a sort of bathroom mirror with an unbiased portrait of me. A place where I could flee to in confidence and express myself in the most honest form when I did not belong anywhere else. A medium that kept be from destroying myself from the ( Read more... )

And then you ask yourself why do you do it. And why to each other. At what point when you were hurting each other could you most identify with love? Over time the cuts and bruises become scar tissue and you notice that the fighting slowly loses its hurt; mentally. And the only way you can prove that the sanctity of your love is real is by putting ( Read more... )

proofread soon half awake in drive way.
Theses are the nights I hate; the ones when you don't have enough cigarettes, when you have to wake up knowing you have to do something for yourself, and when the only reason you're home is because you gas light turned on. These aren't any life threatening or issues that warrant immediate attention or even ( Read more... )

It all gets very old playing these rudimentary and arduous politics. People like to think of themselves and quick and clever but can they really reach into their back pockets and draw their wit as quickly as their dimwitted conclusions and self declared superiority. There minds are quicker, yes, but at a cost that is far more expensive than this ( Read more... )

I wouldn't say that it surprises me because it doesn't, but the amount of time and effort individuals reserve and hatred invested towards the person next to them; had it be used to carry out projects or ideas that helped evolve mankind rather than emphasize the animalistic brutality that were known to embody without needing to be reminded. The ( Read more... )

I've managed to drop out of another program. My life is at an all time low and my morale doesn't seem to be looking up anytime soon. Do you know what it feels like when your knee caps have been busted and the safe zone is within arms length. To know that if you had that one extra push or if you gave a fuck that one evening when you just didnt feel ( Read more... )

For what it's worth you showed me how to love and why I won't do it again. Your behavior will never have an excuse and I wish it would've turned out differently instead of how I've been warned it would from the get go. I love you and I shouldn't and can't. Avoid the sight of me, the mention, and any thought. I hope things get better or at least ( Read more... )