i did not change out of my pajamas or step out of my house even for a second today ( Read more... )

tuesday:

got the best mattie hug ever. he didn't smell bad at all.
almost got proposed to.
met some really amazing people.
praised God.
learned how to make a cup out of a piece of paper.
ate buffalo wings for the first time ever.
stayed up until 4:30 writing a presentation.
worked at 8:30 wednesday morning.

it was a good, good day.

in four days i will get to hug a mattie who probably smells really bad!
and i'm SUPER excited!

it's a weird feeling, not seeing someone you love for 6 months.
i'm so glad that the bitterness i held toward him is gone,
and i'm so glad that i don't want to marry him anymore.

AND I'M SO GLAD THAT I WILL GET TO SEE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!

"being able to come before God no matter what you've done is just like being able to go to your parent's house and use the restroom, even if you've had a fight with them.

...so, basically it's like you can go to God's house, take a spiritual dump and say, 'hey Pops, please take care of my mess. thanks.'"

dear papabear,

i'm calling for my harvest, 100-fold. hook me up.

love, anna.

bio-bear (dad) called me this morning. i was about to fall asleep finally, it's 4:30, and i'm like, "oh are you kiddin' me? come on." and answered.

how are you, you don't return my phonecalls
because when i do start talking to you you start doing crazy things like calling my at 4:30am
 you can look at my phone records i have never
are you drunk?
what?! ( Read more... )

it's so hard to keep my affections where they should be.

so, apparently i'm getting sick. i have absolutely no idea what it is, however, and that's what makes me nervous about it ( Read more... )

i'm 19 and i still haven't been in a real relationship with someone ( Read more... )

"only shop when God tells you to shop."

dangggggit.