I haven't heard from Josh today. I've tried to call him a few times... No answer... He's grounded so he's spose to be at home... I'm worried. I also really miss him right now ( Read more... )

I don't understand it... People. How can they do the things they do? Can there be people who honestly don't have a heart or soul ( Read more... )

My dad and step mom are assholes.... They're so stupid!!! Their pressing criminal charges against my brother for shit he DIDN'T do... And they've also made a million and one freakin allegations about my mom, gramma, and people who've lived with my mom.... I'm like the only one who hasn't been charged with raping or molesting someone else or been on ( Read more... )

I hate myself bad... I really think I suck... I love Josh so much... I can't help but be scared that he's gonna leave me any moment... There's nothing great about me... I'm not good at ANYTHING! Not even acting or swimming which are my passions... bleh... I don't know how Josh puts up with me... I couldn't do it... especially when he has lots of ( Read more... )

I know... I never update this thing... It just sorta exists.... Xanga's what I really use... I really don't know how to do anything on this one.... I don't know how to get a different skin or anything... Yea I suck... Oh well... Hope everyone had a good 4th of July... I hung out with Tasha, Lee, and Josh and set off a few fireworks... I still have ( Read more... )

I'm in Indiana now visiting my family... havin lotsa fun.... but I miss Josh like crazy... I'm scared that my love could possibly get tired of being alone for 2 weeks and seek out some sort of comfort or somethin... you know people do that... I don't want him to go out and do anything that could hurt him or get him in trouble... and I'm scared to ( Read more... )

Yea I'm goin to Justin's concert tonight in Bricktown... Kinda worried... I'm gonna ride with Justin and the rest of the band I guess but I don't know who I'm gonna hang out with there... Have to make new friends I guess... Worried also though cause... Justin and his girlfriend broke... In the past I used to be his fall back girl... hate to say it ( Read more... )

Soooo.... this is my new lil journal thingy... somethin that I can post whatever I want on and I'm not tellin anybody I know about... So that way... I can vent and get other people's opinions n junk and still keep it semiprivate... comprenden? lol anyway... yea... Guess that's about it... gotta get off here and go take my brother to some kinda ( Read more... )