I'm in the basement of a church on the second third of a three hour presentation about the background and mission of the church. I'm sitting at a plastic round table with 4 people. The young man to my left is from Africa, his name was complicated so I forgot it. But he is here at Yale studying neuroscience. The young black woman to my left is named ( Read more... )

I had enough nightmare scenes last night to cover my body in a film of anxiety. One that had already settled over it with the passing day ( Read more... )

It is only through Jesus thay we are forgiven and I am able to forgive through Him. Forgiveness is something I could never do before or without Him. I lived a life of selfish apathy and condemnation for things out of my control which I foolishly tried to control. Being shown I am forgiven has been incredibly humbling because I'm obviously not ( Read more... )

I lost my patience w lena today. I yelled at her so badly at naptime. That when I walked out of her room, I started crying ( Read more... )

I just dreamed I was in a large house w many rooms (recurring, I told you or maybe you forgot) but the house had been remodeled into a greenhouse and farm. I was there before the remodel and I ended up meeting up with you in what used to be the living room. The fire place was closed, I described where the former furniture was while pointing through ( Read more... )

Today I am feeling ( Read more... )

Joyful Sunday.
I feel lovely.

I haven't felt this way in months. I had a full out panic attack during church and had to run out during the first song. All the colors were too bright the clean crisp nature these people was jarring me. I literally ran out, down the steps and to, then past my car. Pacing the parking lot breathing through my nose until it felt like peppermint. ( Read more... )

Tuesday morning in the bathroom while at work, I kicked a wooden step stool and cleanly split my nail to the heart of my big toe. A feat accomplished through two pairs of socks. Under the watch of six blue eyes, I quickly bandaged the ache and it was forgotten ( Read more... )

Gazing out a window not my own with a lollipop red manicure tapping thoughts. Loose hair on my shoulders draped over my polka dot breasts. I'm longing for the touch of a silent man, gone away indefinitely. Now I'm hungry for brown rice heated yesterday ( Read more... )