time for medication

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*strolls into sickbay, on time for his shot and his therapy session with Phlox*

*looks around sickbay, can't see Phlox*

*sees Nightnurse*

*asks where Phlox is*

*is told that Phlox is 'unavailable'*

*frowns*

*leaves sickbay*

Well, ain't that nice

*returns to quarters*

Comments

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*enters quarters*

*wonders what happened to Phlox*

*contemplates leaving him a message*

*sits down at terminal*

*pauses*

No, I won't. He probably has better things to do with his time then tend to some headcase poster boy

*opens engineering schematics instead*

*starts to work*

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*stops to rub tired eyes*

*has felt his mood become blacker and blacker*

*hasn't really read anything, just stewed in own juices about being dropped from the doc's schedule without a word*

*is starting to feel really pissed*

*eyes the file*

No

*gets up, grabs gym bag*

*flees quarters*

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*comes back in*

*couldn't concentrate on workout: place was packed, and he still feels so tired*

*throws gymbag at wall with enough force to make a thump*

*stalks over to terminal*

*looks at screen*

*sees the numbers swim and blur*

*rubs hand over face*

you're cracking up

*remembers the release, last time*

*watches hand snake forward as if it has a mind of its own*

*watches his fingers wrap around the file he had tucked away behind the monitor*

*brings it forward*

*stares at it*

*moves it to the soft white flesh of his inner arm*

*presses*

*presses harder*

*closes eyes*

*feels a tear run down his face*

*drops file*

*reaches forward*

*hits comms*

Tanner to Rostov...

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Rostov here...

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*feels so weak*

Could...could you come to...to my quarters please...if you have time...

*hears own voice fading out*

*feels his knees give way*

Please?

[mrostov]

Sure.

*wonders about the way Stephen's voice sounds*
*gets worried*

I'll be there in a second or two. Wait for me.

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*keys in the code for their shared quarters*
*enters, hears door close behind him*

What's up..., Ste..?

*notices Stephen laying in a foetal position on the floor, a file nearby*
*sees no blood*
*feels strangely relieved*

Oh god... *rushes over and kneels down beside him*

Stephen?

*gently puts a hand on his arm*

Stephen, I'm here...

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*buries into Michael's arms*

I...I didn't...I want to, but I....

*shivers*

*whispers*
Hold me...so I can't. Please. Just for a little while....

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*puts his arms around Stephen, holding him tight*

I'm here...

*gently rubs his back, trying to convey comfort*

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*stays like that for minute after minute*

*finally feels the urges begin to subside*

*looks up at Michael*

Thankyou...

[mrostov]

*frowns*

Nightnurse told me when I called in to make that next chat appointment with Phlox... why didn't that woman tell you?

Do you want to get back to sickbay later and ask for your medication?

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*shrugs*

Can we go at the end of your break? I'm comfy!

*snuggles in for emphasis*

[mrostov]

*chuckles softly*

Sure we can.

*pulls Stephen closer for emphasis*

*hums softly* Mmmmmmmhh....

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*grins*

*feels bad mood disappear faster than it arrived*

Love, when did you turn into such a teddy bear?