I've noticed that since I haven't gotten depressed at the drop of a hat like I used to, I basically try to make myself sad and cry n' stuff. It's like my body/mind misses being sad all the time. Whats the deal?
:( maybe youre just missing emotion. i feel that way a lot of times.. im not sad and im not happy... id rather be depressed then be.......... bored. find something that inspires you. or at least something amusing for the moment. when that loses its spark, move on. live for the moment. live for the smaller things. bigger things come to you when you go out and enjoy yourself.
Yeah.. I just feel very neutral. I dunno if I'd want to be extremely depressed instead. Maybe.. just because of the fact that I feel so akward when I'm in that "bored" state.. I wish that I lived in the moment more. I need to.. everything to me anymore is just like.. amazing. I don't know how to put it, but everything just completely blows my mind. like when I was charging my phone.. "how does that work?" "who the fuck thought of that, honestly?" I can't imagine just sitting down and thinking up something like that. iunno, I wasn't destined to be an inventor, I guess. heh.
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maybe youre just missing emotion. i feel that way a lot of times.. im not sad and im not happy... id rather be depressed then be.......... bored.
find something that inspires you. or at least something amusing for the moment. when that loses its spark, move on. live for the moment. live for the smaller things. bigger things come to you when you go out and enjoy yourself.
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I wish that I lived in the moment more. I need to.. everything to me anymore is just like.. amazing. I don't know how to put it, but everything just completely blows my mind. like when I was charging my phone.. "how does that work?" "who the fuck thought of that, honestly?" I can't imagine just sitting down and thinking up something like that. iunno, I wasn't destined to be an inventor, I guess. heh.
I think I'm going to paint tonight.. <3
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