I hate the bipolar feelings about all of this. Most of it is because I don't want her to be a rebound. I'm the kind of man that when he has a problem will go to the nearest bar and drink. I don't talk about my problems or my feelings. I don't care to. The scary part for me is that I don't want to be that guy anymore. I want to correct the problems ( Read more... )

I can't even begin to explain how ecstatic I am about her. Being with Johnna makes me happier than I can even remember being. I'm sure I'll eventually find things I don't like, as we're always blind at the beginning of things. And I'm a little disappointed in myself for not sticking to my be single for a year thing. But, it's strange. She made me ( Read more... )

I hung out with nerdy girl from my speech class today. Went to Five Guys (she couldn't take that much meat) and came back to my place to watch Dark Knight. What an excellent night. I've forfeited a ton of sleep, but I think it was completely worth it. She's really cool to hang out with and she gets my stupid jokes. No one ever laughs when I call ( Read more... )

Things I'd rather be doing than homework right now:
Drinking heavily
Hitting on hot bartenders
Sleeping
Making metal
Fixing my fucking car
Thinking of an interesting way to get her attention
Making food I should be eating instead of eating food I shouldn't be eating this much of

I hate being so out of practice. I feel like I'm 16 again. That's the worst feeling in the world. I have absolutely no confidence, nothing. I just feel like I'm creepy or something. Which leads me back to my past relationships. They felt so easy. I don't like that feeling either. I need to stop caring. I don't get this. At all. This is a good I'm ( Read more... )

The shittiest thing about being single is that no one gets my stupid jokes. And there's no one to hang out with or talk to on a regular basis. These last few days, I've been really bummed out. I'm strongly considering going to a nearby bar and getting hammered drunk by myself since I don't want to be near my roommate or the other guys I see every ( Read more... )

I had the most amazing dream. It gave me the best idea ever for gadget. Something that could truly revolutionize a lot of things. Arite, maybe not revolutionize things, but I can think of a great market for this.

Difficult, or maybe just obnoxious, is your ex-gf coming out for your mutual friend's birthday and going to a bar and bumping into a girl you've had a crush on for nearly a decade, instantly blowing whatever chance you had. Even though she did ask me to get a beer today. Score one for the win column, especially after she blew me off a couple weeks ( Read more... )

Do you hear me stutter?
Do you hear me stutter?
Isis sings!
There's a brand new day and a brand new disappointment to be found.
Let's fight the good fight.
Give it up while you're still breathing!

Ugh... I don't know why, but Sundays I always get a bit bummed out. I think it's that no one answers text messages and there's no one to sit around with or spontaneously decide to go do something with. I think that's the hardest part for me. The lonely days with nothing to do, except maybe homework.