pedalling through the dark currents / i find an accurate copy / a blueprint / of the pleasure in me / a secret code carved / a secret code carved / swirling black lilies totally ripe / he offers a handshake / crooked / five fingers / they form a pattern / yet to be matched / swirling black lilies totally ripe / on the surface simplicity / but the ( Read more... )

now i will tell you what i've done for you fifty thousand tears i've cried screaming deceiving and bleeding for you but you still won't hear me going under i don't want your hand this time i'll save myself...maybe i'll wake up for once not tormented daily defeated by you just when i thought i reached the bottom i'm dying again i'm going under ( Read more... )

i can't imagine all the people that you know ( Read more... )

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*blushes* i just realized the entry wasn't -that- long. i swear i'll write more now, though. this thing isn't going to be half as neglected as it was before, we hope. (me and the mouse in my pocket, that is :P)

...there was a point to deleting all my old entries. somewhere. oh, right. i'm whiny, and i hate that about myself, and most of my old entries were the same bullshit over and over again, and i got sick of it after awhile. not that that's to say i'm turning over a new leaf or anything, because you know how i am. never happens ( Read more... )

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okay, i'm about to delete all my old entries, mainly because i am tired of hearing myself whine so much. ;) as soon as i've finished that...since lj requires you to do it manually it'll take me four forevers...i'll write a new long entry. promiseomise. :)