rewind-

[envydust]

i wrote this poem january 31st 2005. it always seems that my life repeats itself at different times and places with different people.
i wish never got married.copper

Comments

[nikifiasco]

I've always liked your writing.

What's going on?

[envydust]

thanks. I was just looking up old things I wrote years ago. It means me really sad that I barely write anymore.

Im just being me. The same old me Ive always been where I get bored and unhappy with my life and the person I am with. Not to mention that Marcus is hard to be with anyway. Im thinking about asking him to open up our marriage. At least this way I can still care abuot him and be a good parent to Chloe without being completely miserable. I dont think it will go over well though. I have asked before and a lot of drama resulted from it including accusations of me cheating.

I have changed a lot over the years, but am essentially the same person. I think I dont know how to be happy no matter what the situation is.