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[ephemeralheart]

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[darkpaintedrose]

I basically had the same things running through my head the first year I was with David, lol.

But now I realize that he loves me. He actually, really loves me. And I really do love him. So even though I'm really not good enough for him (he's so much smarter than me, he's much more likeable than me, and he'll always have better jobs than me, lol) but he loves me for me. And I should just take that how it is. Because we're still together, and I feel like we'll be together for a really long time.

[ephemeralheart]

I am no where near the "he loves me" stage. I don't even know if i love him. I mean i know i have great affection for him, but i think love is still a little ways off. I'm just so afraid most of the time. Like i won't let him meet any of my friends for fear that he'll fall for one of them and leave me or one of them will fall for him and try to take him away. I'm so scared that it might have already happened, even though i know there is no evidence of it happening or that it will happen. Like i said, i am in a constant state of stress, like high level, like i'm waiting for the stroke. I don't know what to do and i'm just hoping that at some point it all calms down.

[ephemeralheart]

and the thing that scares me the most is that i see myself with him, having a life. If not married than certainly partnered, and maybe with kids...it's all so scary and i'm trying not to think to far ahead, but i want to be with him, like really. I want us to last as long as possible.