my dad, chris, is going to jail for a really long time cause he owes over 40,000 in back child support... WOOT!!!... and i get to go see him in court the day before my birthday!!!! i cant wait... i have been grinning from ear to ear since i heard the news, even sgt commented on it... i feel bubbly... this makes me so happy... this almost fixes ( Read more... )

someone comment on my journals every now and again... at least pretend you care

i need someone to hold me... i need my teddybear

I realized that i am not dealing with anything... im bottling everything up just like i always do and it all comes out at the worst possible time.... like chemistry class... i really should have been able to remember quantum numbers... but i didnt and i just felt like the whole class was looking at me going "what an idiot" and i started crying, i ( Read more... )

Ashley and I have decided to be friends. It sucks. I really like someone but they live far away and it doesnt matter. They arn't interested in me anyway. At least, I don't think they do. I think they are interested in someone else. I saw my ex-boyfriend today. I wanted him to hold me so much. I needed someone to hold me. I saw Amy today. I wish she ( Read more... )

ashley broke up with me for a black girl... she is moving to hot springs with her... i hate this... i want to die...

why is it that i can never just have friends? there always has to be somthing fucked up happening in my group of friends... everyone is mad at everyone else, and me included... why cant we all just get along? why cant i just let it go? i dont know why... i just cant... it doesnt even really involve me but im still mad and i hate it... i just want ( Read more... )

I am truely sorry for the loss that Lauren Hyman has experienced recently ( Read more... )

i dont know what the hell is going on anymore... i am losing contact, literally and emotionally, with everyone i was ever close to... i have no one that i can talk to or confide in anymore... everyone is finally tired of hearing me... i always hear that im such a good listener... i dont want to be a good listener i want to find a good listener... ( Read more... )