Comments | epicmuse: Sexual frustration. . . Self Inflicted

epicmuse

Sexual frustration. . . Self Inflicted

Jan 10, 2007 06:28

So, I haven't had sex in over a year. Don't ask. I just do this, sometimes for years on end. My longest run was two months shy of four years. I finally figured out why I do this. (Erin, you can feel me on this ( Read more... )

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?? sullengyrl January 10 2007, 15:49:10 UTC

Why is it that you don't post this on myspace? LoL.. I'm just about through with that site anyways.

About the slut fest.. Feel free to mosey on this side of the state. I'm pretty much not going to fuck anyone other then Adam, so go for what you know.. And be careful. I've never been one to be someone else's conscience. You're on your own there chicka. I'm much better at encouraging you to follow your heart.. or your twat. Just be careful and use plastic wrap, k? Muwah.

Re: ?? epicmuse January 13 2007, 22:04:17 UTC

Sweetie, I miss you so much. We are going to have to find some time in the next month or two. I'm booked for the next two weeks, but I can request any two days off after that. Let me know what days are good for you. Maybe I'll cook something or bake something just for you, if you let me use your kitchen. I'll even do the dishes... As for my twat, I'm not sure what I want to do about that. I know what my body wants, but my head keeps saying something different. Condoms are a must for me. I may hate rubber, but I always use protection. I think, actually, that safety has something to do with why I have initiated a few encounters and backed out of them at the last minute. Ever since that bad scare a couple of years ago, I get so paranoid. I mean, even oral has become something to worry about. I wish I had been a child of the 40's. I would have been in my 20's for the 60's. Free and clean love would be so nice. Hell, even ignorance to the dangers would be nice.

airie43 January 11 2007, 22:36:47 UTC

Not sure how I'm supposed to be feeling it... I'm either drowning in it or I don't want it cause I'm fixated on starving myself for the sake of my art...

Whatever. GIRL you only live once. Ride it until the wheels fall off. What are you so damn scared of? THat you'll lose yourself and be forced to finally develop into somone who has given into the person inside instead of what others expect you to be.

Pick a persona and go with it.

Don't be a chicken, I'll kick you!

Please kick me! epicmuse January 12 2007, 23:18:46 UTC

I rather enjoy being in control of the little things, of which this is one. It gives me a greater sense of control over the other areas of my life. As for being a slut, I enjoy the festivities while they last, but find myself wanting more than just sex when it's over. This need for more leaves me feeling like a cheap whore and a bit ashamed, as though I just gave into temptation and should be strong enough to resist. I believe it has something to do with free milk and a cow. . . I guess I should just get over it and get on it. Who knows what I'll do.

Re: Please kick me! airie43 January 12 2007, 23:37:49 UTC

You wanna comment on Blood Ties, or what?

Re: Please kick me! epicmuse January 13 2007, 21:50:03 UTC

I'm working on it! I'm working on it! Give me a little credit. I made it through the posting of Jordan again and even managed to leave comments on some of it. Remember, I have a hotel full of old men and trains. Hard to find time to read when you're busy handing out towels and bandaging steam burns.