Jun 02, 2006 09:06
I really REALLY hate this.
unfortunately yet once again my epilepsy will come to the forefront of the necessary 'evils' of actual honest rights and justifications of my life and how I live it. 5 years ago the DOE of NYC tried to use it on me and the UFT went after them using the ADA branch of the UFT and the really good upfront work I had done when hired 14yrs ago including my medical letter and totally honest communications al these years. I learned quickly of my rights and the bosses and nyc schools looked like idiots and I kept my job albeit harder as they tried to break me inside my spirit but couldn't. I proved my metal though I even fainted from heat exhaustion once or twice in the field. I just kept moving and doing my job no matter what they tried to throw at me.
SO...as of this past week tuesday just before memorial day weekend it apears our landlord is 'offering' to buy us out of our rent stabalized apartment after TWELVE YEARS of living there. He 'says' he wants to build a duplex for his son as a wedding present using the now vacated apartment downstairs in this project. he says he is within his 'right' to do so.
I am the main income as my husband has been out of work like...'forever'. I have had two miscarriages there. I have had many a seizure there. It has been our only home through our 12yrs coming up august of our marriage. The neighbors have been there for us when I have had my seizures too. When my husband worked as a camera for weeks on jobs the neighbors used to come by with groceried for me if I was ill and check in on me just to make sure i was ok. I work but they would see me looking shaky some days as i went back and forth and have been wonderful :)
'THIS' landlord has only been there now 2 yrs. (we have new landlords like every 2yrs or so-building in lots of disrepair)Our lease is up august 31st. we pay $1,100.00 a month for a 5 room(2br,eat in kitchen,livingroom,full bathroom,+ extra foyer space,good closet space,and pantry closet space too. I am an itinerant teacher of the deaf who works AROUND and NEAR my schools cause I don't drive and I was transfered 5-6 yrs ago from the bronx to my home area in queens to reduce the stress on my job and health. I do FOUR schools a day, 7 schools in a week all together on my caseload at 4 schools a day. YES IT'S ALOT. rain,sleet,snow,hot,cold,I travel, never slowing down.
APPARENTLY, after talking to our lawyer last night and reading to her the letter we were served which the landlord told us to ignore...(Bullshit)
HE IS GONNA BE IN A MAJOR PICKLE >:
It seems...my 'disability' and the circumstances under which I live that are 'tailored' to my situational living address and such are gonna be the ROCK that he comes up against. He pretty much can't really do much. He can offer us BIIIIG bucks to move yes. But push us out with this medical issue in the way will be 'difficult'.
I am by no means calm. I am VERY stressed as my husband is trying hard to keep me steady so I don't have my first grand mal, in 4 yrs. I am that stressed. he is watching my hands shake and my eyes go wide as i see my world being anything but calm. I am also angry. My husband may be causing me grief but THIS he is good at. He does this lawyer thing and protecting my job/health very well so I will let him do what he does best with the lawyer. The lawyer apparently has special background knowledge and experience with this aspect of things and has even helped people with epilepsy and employment and did housing stuff before that. We didn't know that before we spoke to her.
I HATE HAVING TO SHOW/EXPLAIN MY EPILEPSY.
I also hate that just because I take care of myself and don't 'look' the part because I work hard to live a 'normal' life that now I must 'play' that card and admit out loud what I do to maintain that delicate balance. FOURTY-TWO years this coming august I have lived with it.
WHY can't I just be left alone to be 'normal'????
*SIGH*
so much for a calmer, quiet, summer :(
It will be ugly before it gets better.
****UNLESS*** The landlord offers us enough money, good money, in which case I want to get the hell out of there into a better apartment that doesn't RAIN inside my bedroom!!!!!! (all the landlords have tried something to fix it but it so far seems intangable as a repaired thing)THIS landlord better damn well repair it and fix the knob on the shower before i do have a seizure in the tub and fal on the sharp screw exposed in the wall!!(I had a grand mal seizure in that tub and bashed my noggin but good on the tub faucet some 8 years ago-egg sized lump-recovered with close watch by husband and neuros-went back to work of course 3 days later;)
GRRRRRRR- This is one of those days where I HATE myself for what I have even if this isn't ME being bad or anything like that :(
ALRIGHT...back to work as my prep is almost over...