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[eponymous]

So the Backstreet documentary finally came out here this weekend and we rounded up a small fangirl posse to go and see it. Super-glad I’d allowed myself to be spoiled beforehand, because I think I would’ve been wrecked by all the personal stuff if I hadn’t had the chance to mentally prepare myself first.

Or, as I said: I’d been planning on

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[erilyn]

Thank you for writing this, you've captured so much of what I've been thinking for last 24 hours, and then so much more. I think the biggest issue with the documentary is that I want it to be a lot longer: I want more about all the time periods and stuff they didn't go into detail on.

Also, other people wear tinhats, cause they're being nutty. We wear attractive and practical shiny chapeaus, cause we are smart and know what is what ;)

[eponymous]

Yes, so much longer! I understand the need to give everybody a homecoming segment, but I really would've preferred less of Howie's rabbit stories and AJ's drinking stories and more digging into their history. Clearly, we need another documentary covering 2001-2012.

Ahh, yes, the attractive and practical sparkling chapeau!

[littlerhymes]

Awesome write-up! Aww, so many emotions. I'm really glad we all went and could share the moment. ♥

[eponymous]

Likewise! Thank you for encouraging me to come. (:

I hope you'll be writing up your impressions, too? I always enjoy reading your thoughts about pop music narratives.

[littlerhymes]

LOL I'll try but your post is SO MUCH more coherent than my notes. I will prob. save up my sparse dot points and append it to my concert thoughts... good grief, I'm so ready for the show right now. :D :D :D

[eponymous]

I know! Why isn't it May already?

[proteinscollide]

I'm really glad we all went together! It made sense to come full circle and share pop love since that where we all first met :) And I knew there was a lot missing but you really lay out some of the hugely glaring holes...ah, more questions than answers even now.

[eponymous]

I'm glad we went, too, and it was great to see you. (:

Clearly, what we need is a documentary to cover the holes in the documentary.

[eponymous]

It really was the best. (:

[nopseud]

Yay, you went to see it! I love, love, love your commentary.

I could’ve watched hours of them writing songs in the London flat. So many hours.

Me, too! I really hope that whenever the DVD comes out that there's a ton of deleted scenes. And I want fic, lots of fic.

The whole time Nick was yelling, all I could think was that he just wanted somebody to validate his existence.

I know. It's so heartbreaking. I think when kids grow up completely deprived of conditional love and stability, it breaks them in ways that are so hard to fix. It's like Nick is missing the whole foundation of belief in his own value as a person. :-(

Kevin the peacemaker was awesome. I can’t remember his exact words, but something about, Let’s talk from a place of love, because of course.Kevin is like a walking self-help book sometimes, he really is. (Something that I noticed just now when I was watching the fight again. At the very beginning of the fight, when Nick is screaming at Brian to shut the fuck up, Kevin starts laughing in the back of the shot. I

[eponymous]

It's like Nick is missing the whole foundation of belief in his own value as a person. :-(Yeah, exactly. And if having a massively-successful career and a close circle of long-term friends and a loving girlfriend-turned-wife (I know nothing about her, but people have said she's good for him?) can't make you feel you have value as a person, can anything

[nopseud]

Thinking more about the Nick/Brian fight, I wonder if Nick meant he's no longer afraid of Brian's censure?

That would make sense. (And also fit with Nick accusing Brian of being a dick 'like everyone knows you are'. Assuming that pointing out someone's terrible life choices counts as being a dick in Nick's mind.)

although Brian hasn't rejected Nick outright, he has been disapproving of many of the choices he's made.

Yeah, I'm sure he's been pretty vocal about it, too. I mean, he actually had himself blurred out of the BSB group meeting scene in HoCrack, which at the very least means he refused to sign the releases to let them show him. And it's so obvious it's Brian (okay, I instantly recognised his knees, which was...a skill I did not know I possessed before that moment) because who the hell else would be at a BSB group meeting? So he must've purely been making the point about House of Carters being an awful idea.

Actually, apart from Brian bringing Nick his tea, I'm struggling to remember any positive Nick/Brian interactions

[eponymous]

Hah! I had heard that Brian had himself blurred out of HoCrack, but I hadn't realised it was at a Backstreet meeting. That's just so passive-aggressive it's kind of hilarious.

I'm surprisingly saddened the idea that Nick and Brian might not be friends any more. I think Brian was so, so good for Nick in the early years -- especially now that we keep hearing more about Nick's terrible pre-band home life. (I really cannot get over the gun thing. That's just a whole new level of horrifying.) The 20th Anniversary Tour is finally coming here (...two years later) in May so I'll be on high alert for N/B moments.

Regarding Brian's looks, I think it might be that he's finally grown into that jaw of his.

Glad to hear I might've misheard about the This Is Us tour! I'll have to ask my friend for more details.

Btw, there's a good chance I'll be in your neck of the woods sometime this year. Would love to catch up again. (: