Happiness and satisfaction don't come from everything in your life being smooth, because it never will be. Happiness and satisfaction come from learning to flow with your own tides; from accepting your wants and your flaws, your ups and your downs, rather than constantly seeking to "fix" the "bad" parts ( Read more... )

( wouldja like to take a SURvey? )

I think I can't hear anything even remotely negative immediately upon waking up; I get this very illogical sense of impending, all-encompassing doom. This is more illogical than any other sense of impending doom I may have because some very random and minute disappointment leads to feelings of "everyone must think I'm a poisonous personality" after ( Read more... )

Weekends shouldn't wear me out like this. I really love Steve, and of course I love seeing him and spending time with him, but being around his parents wears me the fuck out. I know I've discussed it before but the cognitive dissonance I have with their attitudes is honestly too extensive for me to contain in a couple of LJ posts. When I go to see ( Read more... )

AGH AGH AGH AGH AGH I feel ill on account of sleeping for only 4 hrs. and eating naught but a fucking Zicam taffy this morning. I just want some REAL FOOD and some kind of medicament that won't make me feel like Satan and all his minions took a massive collective shit in my mouth (Zicam, Cold-Eeze), won't give me night-terrors or mental images ( Read more... )

Is to make a shitload of lists. Because I have so much shit to do, yeah ( Read more... )

there's a door here but it will not break
there's a face there but it won't remain
up there a heaven now but it will not wait
and the lies there, the scent of it, just too much

so should you sow it once and make it grow
the sweet clematis
let it flower and paint it all of the colors bold
instantly things fall and fade, return to silence ( Read more... )

Ladies and gentlemen, I give you a bit of an evolutionary photopost, showcasing my look over the past four years.

( from 2004, and onward! )

I. feel. so. good ( Read more... )

So, I assembled a rather lovely outfit. I'm a little bit obsessed with it - this is the first time in a while (several months) that I really felt like I was expressing myself with an outfit. It really feels like me.
( What is it?! )