Fricken A! I missed Pi Day....
20 minutes after midnight!!!
ahwell..
I sometimes ponder the what-if.
It's a nice ponder.
I know the fo-reals though.
Another naked saturday.
It's not as exciting as it was.
More so because I don't want to be in my room all day.
I...need to get out on my own and explore a bit.
I also want to sleep in.
That will be nice.
Today was such a long day.
This week has been such a long week.
Daylight savings and staying up way too late to do my homework.
Whether I know I'm doing it or not, I am directly affected by the weather.
Yesterday was sunny.
I was giddy.
Today was gloomy.
I wasn't so upbeat.
But for like an hour it was sunny today...
and for that hour I couldn't help but be smiley.
Then it ended.
Then there were people.
I Wish I could function without others.
Maybe I'll go for a walk.
Maybe I'll go listen to music somewhere and watch life happen.
That would feel good.
It would feel better if there were others doing the same.
I found myself feeling dumb for wearing my jacket the other day.
Why?
Because others weren't wearing their jackets.
I scolded myself for comparing me to them.
People I don't know.
People that don't know me.
People that don't care who I am and what I wear.
It was dumb.
I am socially awkward.
There is no doubt about it.
This place magnifies it.
I embrace it.
It makes various things interesting.
I think karma exists.
My thoughts were almost proof.
They hate me.
Damn them.
Just...be my friend.
Just...fucking listen to me when I know what I'm talking about!
its not hard.
You made it hard.
fuckers.
ahwell..
I sometimes ponder the what-if.
It's a nice ponder.
I know the fo-reals though.
Another naked saturday.
It's not as exciting as it was.
More so because I don't want to be in my room all day.
I...need to get out on my own and explore a bit.
I also want to sleep in.
That will be nice.
Today was such a long day.
This week has been such a long week.
Daylight savings and staying up way too late to do my homework.
Whether I know I'm doing it or not, I am directly affected by the weather.
Yesterday was sunny.
I was giddy.
Today was gloomy.
I wasn't so upbeat.
But for like an hour it was sunny today...
and for that hour I couldn't help but be smiley.
Then it ended.
Then there were people.
I Wish I could function without others.
Maybe I'll go for a walk.
Maybe I'll go listen to music somewhere and watch life happen.
That would feel good.
It would feel better if there were others doing the same.
I found myself feeling dumb for wearing my jacket the other day.
Why?
Because others weren't wearing their jackets.
I scolded myself for comparing me to them.
People I don't know.
People that don't know me.
People that don't care who I am and what I wear.
It was dumb.
I am socially awkward.
There is no doubt about it.
This place magnifies it.
I embrace it.
It makes various things interesting.
I think karma exists.
My thoughts were almost proof.
They hate me.
Damn them.
Just...be my friend.
Just...fucking listen to me when I know what I'm talking about!
its not hard.
You made it hard.
fuckers.