i'm a dumbass. i try to be friends with him, i try so hard, and then I say stupid things all the time like "i miss you". last time i talked to him he seemed too depressed to want to talk to me. this time? "Actually, i don't really miss you, and I'm doing really well. Cindy says I should be clear with you about that." (cindy - friend of his I know/ ( Read more... )

i need a stable social life, and i think i'd be so much better off ( Read more... )

don't you hate when the can-i-smoke-weed or not argument turns into the dating/love/relationship approach philosophy discussion, and you seem to glean that at some point, you'll make a decision and lose this person forever ( Read more... )

ok, so i might not have a job, and i'm still sick, but going back to school and not living in this nice place and not living with ben is going to SUCK I WILL NOT BE USED TO IT. I'm going to have to eat crappy food again in the fall. major stomach sadness. anyway for fourth of july i talked to cindy and went grocery shopping with her and then played ( Read more... )

sharing a full bed is much much much better than sharing a twin. however i still suck at it ( Read more... )

i thought i would let you all know that while i was doing candice's uk vs. us people quiz with ben (the new ben) and tried to say that we had done it together, he said "I don't want to be a part of your forum! it's a cult!" he was MOSTLY joking, i think, but he wouldn't let me refer to him in the post ( Read more... )

neg: I have mono. :( No Rites of Spring for me. and no refund on the $430 I paid for it, either.

pos: living with the boyfriend this summer, and he is going to take care of me later this week too.

so I don't actually have any friends at school other than my roommate and everyone who talks to me does so because they want to talk to my roommate or something. I should try to go into IRC more at the right time if it is ever inhabited these days. but I just feel terribly lonely right now. it's beautiful outside and I have no one to share it with.

I have a lovely boy even if if he lives two hours away and I'll only see him every other weekend. I have good friends at school, and this semester seems to be starting off well. Other than occasionally feeling a little lonely still (if I try to socialize and can't find anyone, i tend to get mopey) things are going well. I have been doing artworky ( Read more... )

I probably shouldn't be worrying about this because I'm not at school yet and things might not be so confusing as I'm making them out to be, but I feel like ranting so I'm going to. feel free to pay absolutely no attention ( Read more... )