Walking Zombie.

[erago]

All around, life just sucks right now. I'm not going into what, but... It's enough pain to leave me a walking zombie. I can't sleep, eat, or drink. All I can do is feel my pain. All I can do is continue to shake violently...and have fits like that. Thankfully I'm not under one now, but I will probably go under another one soon. All I can do

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[gryphalcon]

*cuddles you*

Oh dear.

I'm sorry I haven't been read ing my friends pages much for ages, sound's like you've been down for quite a while.
What sort of meds are you on? you didn't really say.

I'm not sure what to say now, cause I know how unhelpfull the ussual 'cheerful encouragement talk' is when I'm that down.

IF I can help in any way, let me know.

[erago]

I'm not on meds. *cuddles* I mean, I am over for the most part of being depressed, my best friend Smy and I celebrated last night by getting drunk off of sparkling cider, ahahahaha. Yesh, we get drunk off of that. Hanging with my best friend, playing airsoft, running wild with my cozs and friends, ripping & burning the papers that showed who hurt me...has helped a lot to lessen my pain. I admit, I'll be bleeding for a while. But also what helped too, was talking to the person who hurt me. I'm still trying to figure out where I stand with that person...But I'll deal with it.

[gryphalcon]

Glad your better, Hope it continues.
I'm half asleep at the moment. So I probably shouldn't write to much.
Bye!

[erago]

Hehehe, it's okay. Everything still hurts...so...bad. I'm not sure if I should leave this person. I love them so much...so I dunno...But at the same time, I know I cannot. It would make me worse...*sighs* Stuck between a rock and a hard place no where to turn or to go and getting hurt either way.

[humble_l]

I could be totally wrong, but I think I know what you are talking about too. Eh.. but, you know how to ground right? Try some major grounding to release all that pain into the earth to be healed and cleansed. It may not remove all the pain you are in, but could certainly maybe.. lessen it some.

[erago]

Fire decided to be nice to me yesterday. I ripped to shreads these papers that I had...that showed what represented my pain. Then I burnt them. That helped released the pain as well as playing airsoft and not being allowed to wallow and talk to the person who hurt me. I still bleed and will be for a long time. I'm...sane right now. But next time, I'll try to ground.

[humble_l]

Hey, if burning works, stick with that. I was just trying to offer a way to help. Sounds like you got one already! Or you could try both if ever needed again. =)

[erago]

I'm probably going to have too...though, I still bleed...emotionaly that is.