Comments | eraseyoureyes: Then lonesome would mean nothing to me at all.

eraseyoureyes

Then lonesome would mean nothing to me at all.

Feb 10, 2005 01:03

the morning is dead
and the day is, too
there's nothing left here to meet me
but the velvet moon
all my loneliness i have felt today
it's like a little more than enough
to make a man throw himself away
and i continue
to burn the midnight lamp
alone
can't ya hear me callin' you?
so lonely
gonna have to blow my mind
lonelyI'm losing my grip on sanity ( Read more... )

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__velvetsun February 13 2005, 02:07:52 UTC

you never know, Courtney may understand better than you think, doll. You can't underestimate your friends. And if you two are as close as you think, and have been friends for a long time, she probably already suspects. I think you should talk to her.. But its your choice.

<3Shelley

eraseyoureyes February 13 2005, 04:33:31 UTC

Yea, that's what I always tell people, and mostly I do think that's the best idea. But it's complicated, and I don't know how to explain.

Basically, it's too late for me to tell her now. We've been friends for 14 years; she's the only person who never abandoned me. If I tell her I've been keeping so many secrets from her for all this time...she would be crushed. She'd feel utterly betrayed. I can't do that to her just to "get it off my chest."

It's not that she wouldn't understand my position, she wouldn't understand why I couldn't trust her with it. And I don't think she'd be able to get over it. Ugh.

-- KT