Comments | erastes: voices in the dark

erastes

voices in the dark

Jan 26, 2015 21:42

So, here I go, pulling myself up by the fingertips, slowly up the sides of the hole I seem to have been in for many many many months. I'm making no promises as to "what I'll do and when I'll do it by" but as we all know, the journey starts with a single step, and if you never make that step (even if you have to make it several times...) you'll ( Read more... )

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aunty_marion January 26 2015, 22:19:04 UTC

Oops, anon comment (via Facebook) was me! Didn't realise I wasn't logged in...

erastes January 27 2015, 08:29:08 UTC

aw - thanks dear. I am hoping - really hoping that it's turn upwards - I feel positive today as well, so that's two days in a row. Thank you!

erastes January 27 2015, 08:42:13 UTC

what's bdtd? i tried looking it up but failed!

aunty_marion January 27 2015, 08:51:55 UTC

BTDT = Been There, Done That. (BTDT,GTTS= Been There, Done That, Got The T-Shirt!)

(You are OK to unscreen the other comment, you know!)

lexin January 26 2015, 22:52:40 UTC

I'm sorry you've been feeling like this. I've had depression and it sucks, big time.

Hugs to you and the animals.

erastes January 27 2015, 08:33:13 UTC

although I wouldn't wish it on anyone, it is comforting to know that there are people out there who understand. Thank you xxx

valarltd January 26 2015, 23:31:36 UTC

Depression is the black passenger and I've been wrangling him for weeks now ("Return to your seat, the Angel is in motion. I must go to work. I said return to your seat, sir!") Some days I win and go do the things I need to do. Some days I lose and stay in bed, emerging only to knit and crochet.

Sounds like he got the better of you for a while. But you're still wrangling him, and some days you will have days like today.

Handwork is therapy, never doubt it. As are your animals.

Keep climbing. We're here cheering.

erastes January 27 2015, 08:43:59 UTC

I hope your black dog lasts a lot less than mine, it sounds like you are managing pretty well and in the right manner!

thanks my dear

xxx

irreparable January 27 2015, 04:41:40 UTC

As a fellow "endurer" of depression, I empathise. I say "endurer" because that's what it feels like, enduring in a long struggle against the beast at my shoulder.

I'm sorry that you're suffering. If I can help in any way, please let me know.

erastes January 27 2015, 08:44:53 UTC

It's just nice to know there are still people out there who remember me and care! It means a great deal, believe me! Thanks, hun xxx

moreteadk January 27 2015, 07:44:27 UTC

I'm glad you're feeling a little bit better and it was really good to hear from you! *hugs*

My father has/has had some of the same problems you struggle with, particularly the one with difficulties with reading and remembering. He can't read books anymore or follow a television series or sometimes even a film because he can't remember who's who and loses track of what happened two pages ago. It's been like that for a few years now. BUT! Last summer when we had our big family holiday week in the Lake District (us, my parents, Husband's parents), he found a copy of a book he had read a few times before, and actually managed to read about two thirds of it in the week we were there. In English, even, which is doubly positive because he's not very confident about his English skills. I feel like there is a little light at the end of the tunnel there.

I wouldn't be too concerned about doing so much knitting or 'pointless crap' games. There's nothing wrong with that if it helps you gain a bit of zen.

erastes January 27 2015, 08:47:06 UTC

I was the same as your dad, I simply couldn't watch a film to the end, my concentration was completely shot. I started reading again last year, comfort reading mostly, re-reading Pratchett and Harry Dresdens and GRRM from the beginning and only now am finally branching out to new books, but it's not been easy. I hope your dad comes through too - thanks for being here! xxx