Incoming Identity Crisis

[erdbeerkirsche]

Dear Family,
would you please stop encouraging me?

You know it really puts a huge pressure on me, when I hear sentences like "Oh, we all know, you're going to do this, dear!", "You'll be successful!" or "We believe in you!"

I know, you just say so because you care for me and stuff and I love you for doing this... but... why start now with saying

Comments

[yumenonozomi]

Oh, sounds like a lot of pressure. D:
I have/had some pressure as well because I was the only between my sisters to have managed to go to the Gymnasium, so I think I can understand, kinda. xD'

[erdbeerkirsche]

Did your parents put pressure on you? Or you on yourself? Or both

[yumenonozomi]

It was more.. as a child I really enjoyed going to elementary school and the pressure I did was by myself (it has the retarded backstory that I always wanted to be as intelligent as that genius from Sailor Moon, lol xD). Though once I entered Gymnasium it was so much, I wanted to switch to Realschule in the 6/7th grade, but my parents didn't let me anymore, so I had some pressure from there and then the thing with repeating a class happened (though seriously, it's because I understood the subjects only a bit later after we had the exams always - I had a 5 in maths but when I repeated the class I suddenly was between 1-2, haha) and my mom started to bitch so heavily about it and everything and kept comparing me to the children of her friends

[erdbeerkirsche]

I hate it when someone compares their own child to someone else's. My sisters keep comparing their own children with other children