hmmm...i haven't much felt the need for LJ in the past few months. i suppose i've been to busy with my family disintegrating and having to live with the absurdity of my situation. but also, i don't think anyone has really missed my ramblings anyway. or have you? let me know if you give a shit and maybe i'll start updating again.

i hate when i feel bad about myself for no real reason.

i'm constantly bombarded with negativity all day long at school and it's really hard to not let it affect me. i think it's time to really start distancing myself from everyone and just do my own thing.

p.s. the new decemberists is gorgeous.

i don't even know what to say to you all anymore. i've been so overscheduled the past 2 months that i barely have time to breathe ( Read more... )

Fat Pie!

jenna, i think you'll love this especially!

new years was MUCH better than xmas by leaps and bounds. i had a great time with the people i'm closest to and people that i'm getting closer to everyday. this was probably one of the first new years that i didn't burst into tears when the clock struck 12. the last year was a mixed bag, full of awful and wonderful...but it was a transitional ( Read more... )

i start school in the morning...

yikes!

i'm excited!

this has got to be the worst holiday season i've experienced in my almost 23 years of life. working in retail during the holidays was my first mistake ( Read more... )

i got approved for my school loan. everything that i've been trying to make happen for myself has finally come to fruition.

yet i'm upset because of other things that have happened today, when i should be happy. this fucking life of mine.

i'm all moved in.

:::big ass sigh of relief:::

since august of the year 2000 i have moved 6 times.

supposedly, moving is supposed to be the most stressful thing a person can go through. fuck me!

august 2000 - roadtrip from philly to portland. my first apartment ever...a 2 bedroom in north portland with julia which soon became my apartment alone when julia left. and then matt lived with ( Read more... )