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well last nite i slept at sarahs. we went to the park and met up with a few ppl(1 a very cute boii.. no names mentiond) but yea i got to see some old friends. things ddnt go so well adn well sarah got upset. ok so later we come back outside in our pj's to look at the stars with ryan. i was on the fone with regan for like 1/2 an hour be4 he realized it was me. lOl. ok so heres where the trouble starts:
i called JH back and keith called sarah's phone because obviously i was on mine. so he told me "erica i love you so much but.. were never gona see eachother" well i knew that ment break up so i started histericly crying and threw the phone. i meen.. if he loves me that much than distance shouldnt matter rite?? i meen this week he was like i wana b with u forever.. but i guess i shoulda knew something was up when he said that he was stoping inlining.. doing skateboarding.. telling me the next time his grandma bring him to wayne will be the last time she will.. and im like keith ur changing.. and hez like no ur changing. w/e i guess i should heal. i am going into highschool rite?? well then sarah painted my toe nails and we did stuff and i guess it got my mind off. becca told me some shit i held on to.. so thanx u 2. she said to remember all the good times with him and smile about them because for a month i was with someone and i dont regret a min.. well like every time i was with him was happy.. so i odnt know.. i took the neclace off.. i feel so alone without it. but i dont think i need a guy to move on. i meen like now i can go around lookin at guyz n stuff.. so as i try not ta cry ima try my best to move on.. even tho me n keith did hold something pretty special.
today:
well i woke up and got dressed.. then sarah's dad took us over to oriantation. it was pretty stupid, but then i saw chris, chris, and sexy bobby. i ddnt know it was bobby at first because i havnt seen him in soooo long.. well yea. later my mom brought us home and then chris called.. then came over with chris and bobby. randy decided to be a bizitch and he like totaly imbarised me infront of em. then i talked to my mom and she let them drive me to cheerleading practice. we walked n talked before that. it was ok i guess. but theyr really cool. when i got to hills, all the seniors were staring.. i was like WHAT?? and ran inside. i know all of the downstairs of whhs, but the upstairs is still a big blur. so when everyone got there we started to learn our dance, and ofcorse "coach" scala ragged on me and said if my shoulder wasnt gona feel better soon than shed have to replace me.. in my head im like fuck u im not goin anywere. ok so then i came home took a shower and here i am.. kinda upset about yesterday.. i tried to cal him but w/e. im gona go now.
♥ Erica