What I learned about myself today ...

[eries]

I have severe trust issues which, more often than not, cause me to become unnecessarily jealous on an extremely unhealthy level.

How do I make this stop?

Comments

[courtneeporker]

here's the thing, lover.

knowing that jealousy is actually just a manifestation of insecurity is maybe the first step.

also acknowledging that jealousy is an absolutely wasted emotion is important, too. you gain nothing from jealousy. it only hurts you and other people.

trust is not easy. but it is possible to move on from jealousy.

[eries]

i suppose i do have insecurities, i'm sure you're right that it probably comes from there, but I never used to be a jealous person. I almost wish I was because maybe I would've seen what was happening underneath my very own eyes. My problem then, was that I trusted too much and too easily.
Then my trust was broken.
And now, I don't trust anyone. And since I don't know how to trust anymore, I get jealous over things that no one should ever get jealous over.

I feel like I can't win.

I HATE being jealous. I hate the feeling and I wish I could get rid of it forever. It's a terrible emotion and all it does is hurt people, you're right.

Wow...

[dr_demonic]

I just looked at this, and I'm pretty sure that you're swiping material out of my live journal entries. :p