Working again today. Saturday was a complete disaster. Well, the morning wasn't too bad. We got everything done, nobody complained too much. But Saturday night...That whole huge 3500 people BBQ we were supposed to do? Holy fuck. We didn't even make $100. Tons of people, standing 25 feet away from us, drinking and talking, but not eating. ( Read more... )

Spent the morning at Harvey's. Nothing too unusual. Sunday night was good - went to Danielle's house for a barbeque, then to Doug's place later. Drank too much, smoked too much...The usual. I finally heard from the School of Social Work and the Psych. Department. I was accepted into both. I confirmed my position with the School yesterday, so I ( Read more... )

Weird mood today. Went out on Friday night with Dug and Lindsay, then to Richard's house. He had some people over, just hanging out and drinking. Nothing like last weekend - too many people for my taste. Drank a fair bit, smoked some weed. Dug drove me to work on Saturday morning. Why do I continually put my body through this? I got maybe two hours ( Read more... )

When did I become so damn unhappy? Everything makes me cry lately, and I seem to be in a constant state of worry. I know that the responsibility to make things right falls on me, I know this, but somehow I just don't know where to start. I'm surrounded by family and I still feel so alone in everything I do. Even when I'm in his arms, or with our ( Read more... )

I know I should be studying. I know it. The exam is on Monday. I want to stop caring. Let me go to work and write and play and not think about school or grades or any kind of shit like that. I am so bored and so alone here, all by myself all day. This is not good for me...

Talked with Dug. I'm not so pissed anymore. I vented, he listened. It felt good. Social work exam went well, I think. Some stuff I totally guessed on, but what are you going to do? Anyway, the next one isn't for a week, so I can finally take it easy and study slowly...I am going to sleep 'til noon tomorrow. I'm excited, even if nobody else is...

I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.

Social work exam tonight...Not too nervous, but nervous enough. It's really windy out today, which isn't helping the present ( Read more... )

I really should be studying, but it's been an off day. An off week is more like it. Is it possible to have an off lifetime? "Funny how it comes to pass that all the good slips away". I've been talking to Caleb quite a bit lately. Things seem sort of OK for us now. Well, at least in my mind. I get the feeling that he finds talking to me awkward and ( Read more... )

Cayley wasn't kidding when he said that the sky was falling. I didn't realize how fucked up things are for the people of my old life. I guess I stopped thinking about them the day Cayley and I broke up. Where have I been? Caught up in my own little mainstream-girly-pleasing everybody place...I feel sort of lost, like the person that I am, or am ( Read more... )