"A Mystery"

a Mystery - why my thoughts stray to you
[eyes so clichely blue]
so long I longed to be away from us
separation was Beauty in Pain
my life was no longer Mundane
as friends replaced and filled
years and babies and wives and tears later
your photo epilogues our era
and makes my eyes swell, heart jumps to
my throat
to cut you from my Memory
without ( Read more... )

For the past few weeks I have been struggling with a few things... each of those things was based around a fear I have of being alone... a fear that is totally unfounded...

Tonight, I felt like I was being called to go to church... the church I go to (mind you, I don't go regularly... even though I feel like I should) is a small one, but every ( Read more... )

Have you ever felt like you just didn't belong... like, no matter who you were with, you were somehow out of place... the third wheel... the black sheep... all of those lovely cliches? Even with your best friends, who you would trust with any secret, any scrap of knowledge, anything...

Have you ever longed for a relationship, romantic or otherwise, ( Read more... )

I have this idea... I have these short stories that I have written... and I have started sending them off to publishers... And I was thinking, maybe I could start posting bits and pieces of them on here for you all to read, and respond to! If anyone would be interested in reading, and responding, please let me know!! And i will post a piece of of ( Read more... )

I was driving home after a final on Friday and I was stopped at a traffic light... I looked up, at the clouds, and they were moving across the sky SO rapidly... and as they flew by the song "Dare You To Move" by Switchfoot came on the radio. I sat there, and watched as the big white fluffballs raced across the sky, and saw whole sections of blew ( Read more... )

I've figured it out... and all along, it was sitting there, right in front of my nose, practically smacking me in the face... It took me 23 years of trial and error before I saw it... and it's available to EVERY single person in the world... no exceptions ( Read more... )

 It's funny how one day, something can seem like the most important thing in the world... and then the next, things are sort of put into perspective.  I think I'm starting to figure it all out... I have a long way to go, but things are sort of starting to line up and become clear... I think I've finally found the key... Actually, I think I had the ( Read more... )

So even though I feel like crap, and my dorm is a thousand degrees, and I've been in class all day, and I still have to go to wal mart to buy towels (because I forgot to bring any from home)... I'm in a surprisingly good mood ( Read more... )

And again I feel like crap... the weird part about it is that I'm at home... and my friends are here... and still, I feel so totally and utterly disconnected from everyone... maybe it's me... maybe I only feel this way because something in ME is wrong... maybe it's not them... I just don't know anymore... Maybe I'm worrying too much about how "I ( Read more... )

I guess moving away really hasn't been as bad as I thought... yes, I miss my friends...and yes, I miss my family... but at the same time I'm having life experiences that I would never have had if I still lived at home... I'd be doing the same old thing, day after day... and while that "same old thing" is great, it's nice to have experiences that I ( Read more... )