I think I've avoided writing for the past few days. Physically I've felt blah. Red nose, phlegm plagued, hacking cough. Yesterday I felt light headed and wobbly. I stepped on the scale today and was surprised. I need to take better care of myself. It's hard because I feel blah mentally as well. Professionally, things have never been better. I am ( Read more... )

-I feel like shit today.The children have given me the illness that is traveling around.I am not grateful.My nose is crimson red and running like a sieve. My chest is crackling,my hands are clammy and I am sneezing up a storm.Twenty percent of the class was absent yesterday.It's really not surprising when you see the way these cretins behave. They ( Read more... )

Her eye is fine....but it has still been a shitty week. I had a few choice naps,I worked my hours, I found humor in vomit, tantrums, and illness. That wasn't so bad I guess. However I have developed a sad,cynical, haunting, inner monologue that will not desist. I loathe the closed circuit performances that run through my head. I am getting tired of ( Read more... )

My aunt thinks her retina has detached again... fuck.

Q.What's funnier then a child having a tantrum?
A. A child having a tantrum while wearing a panda bear hat.

Today has been an interesting day. Instead of wallowing in my self-contempt like I had planned, I focused my attention on the well being of others. I think M ( the student I work with who has disabilities)and I finally reached an agreement about her chipmunking food in her cheeks. Today it was an orange, yesterday it was a pepper and last week it ( Read more... )

Rough night. Who woulda thunk that a stupid fucking phone, that I fucking hate would cause me to sob. It's just that the phone and I have been through a lot together. Its helped me through countless hours of monotony and boredom. Its GPS has guided me near and far. Its ring and beeps once harbored good tidings.Yes, I am crying partially over lost ( Read more... )

It's Saturday afternoon. I've been to the gym, I've cashed my check. Now I think it's time for a nap. I think I deserve it.

I went away for the weekend. Hung out with an old friend. It was nice to reconnect and relax.I wish I could experience more of that. I could go for a nap right now, however I still have two hours of work left. So is life...always waiting, always wanting more.

My mother wants us to go see "Breaking Dawn" tomorrow night when she gets out of work. She even suggested we could go to Lawrence so we wouldn't run into anyone we know. I'm watching the cast on "Ellen" right now. I think my "pathetic" quota for the weekend has been met.