seriously...

[erin_with_an_e]

I've never really had issues with self esteem. I dont walk around thinking I'm hot shit all day or anything either. I hope I never do. I like being simple and humble. And I'm not weak willed, but lately I have had so much inner turmoil over the fact that there is something I definitely lack

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[heathersucks]

"I just have to wait for the switch to turn on inside me that makes me feel strong."

I don't think that's the problem. You're one of the strongest people i know. Being able to say exactly what you want to convey is hard for any one. I think you're normal!

And i love you!

[erin_with_an_e]

I love you too :)

I think if I just speak up more often I will feel alot better

[petitepapillon]

Uh, so I use to be the same, still kinda am. But I use to always get interrupted, talked over, you name it. So because of this I was very timid in saying the things that I wanted to say. After a while, I started being the rude person and interrupted people. I would tell people that interrupted me to shut up. (not a good thing to do!) Now I just make sure I say what I wanted to say and I often...OFTEN say things that should probably go unsaid. I have a pretty good filter, but my mouth just moves automatically!!

Just make people listen to what you want to say. They won't always like it, they might sometimes laugh at you, but dammit...atleast you said it. (People laugh at my words all the time.) I don't though. I like what I have to say...not everyone else has to!

[laughindoors]

this, I think, is definitely something that you can change, especially as you have a desire to change it. It's not so much a matter of waiting for the switch to turn, but turning it yourself, because in reality you have the ultimate control over it, not the other way around. Acting timidly isn't anything too deeply imbedded into your character that you could never change it. You just have to ask yourself why you aren't saying or doing the things that you want when you feel whatever it is that stops you. If you really analyze your actions you'll find that your fear is completely useless, it is only there to keep you static.