Rejection and regression.

[errantways]

This week has been, on balance of emotions, a pretty rough one for me; rougher than I have had in a long while, certainly multiple years. The reason for the roughness is that I have suffered two significant-feeling rejections in quick succession (the first was five days ago, the second was last night/this morning). I won't be getting into the

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[miss_whiplash]

This could be very wide of the mark, but what I think I'm hearing about is a mismatch of expectations. I see you, with so much love to give and the people you want to love pulling away.

I just wonder if your love is so powerful it overpowers those you love. If they feel you are making plans for them way beyond the stage in the relationship their understanding puts it in. If that is the case, your love might feel like a whirlpool to them.

As I said I could be very wide of the mark.

The other thing I think I'm hearing is that Brandon loves you very much, but that somehow you are not quite connecting. Maybe he is putting you first. Maybe he is submissive and his very nature means you are the one who will need to be in control, I don't know.

The problem with reading between the lines is that anything that you didn't say could be something you didn't mean to say.

[errantways]

I don't think you're wide of the mark. I just don't know what to say about it right now. All I can think or feel right now is empty.

This may make no sense - it's an outpouring.

[miss_whiplash]

lechuguilla shared this with me yesterday. He felt his fish were dead

Re: This may make no sense - it's an outpouring.

[errantways]

Thank you, sweet lady. More processing to be done, but I do so appreciate you sharing your thoughts with me, it does mean a lot. Expect a more thorough response.