mysterious machines and expanding puddles of self-doubt

[erupt_disaster]

i don't know. sometimes i just get so angry that i can hardly say anything. so sad about who i am, and frustrated with how i feel that people perceive me. i don't have the gall to tell anyone how i really feel, or if something they've done has upset me, but i guess i just don't feel that i deserve to. i'm really not sure that i'm talking about

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"They say she plays guitar and cries, and sings."

[csisterrible9]

It's really true when people say "it's what you put into it." My school is swarming with kids who are there as socialites and hardly anything else. I generally don't like any of them and I can honestly say that I pretty much never liked anyone in any music class i've ever taken, even in highschool. Basically what I'm saying is that there is a certain level of maturity that comes with being a musician and being a student of music. No matter what is going on in your life outside of music, when you're in a practice room, or in a rehearsal or an audition or a performance or even a theory class, there should be that understanding of "im checking my baggage at the door and im walking in with a clean slate, ready to absorb everything." Im not saying you're immature or you have loads of baggage or something like that. You just have too much potential and I think you have to figure out what's truely important to you in terms of school. It's obvious that you think your friends are important and music in the general and pschyological sense