there's so much sun where I'm from, I had to give it away; had to give you away.

[esachicaloca]

This week has been quite the contradiction. I'm glad that the whole college waiting process is done and over and yet I can't deny that I'm disappointed. I'm not a pessimist-- I know I'll be happy where ever I end up, but I have no problem admitting I'm jealous of everyone else who not only knows exactly what they want, but got it; so easily, too. I

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[sammy_k]

This made me feel a twinge of something close to guilt: I'm jealous of everyone else who not only knows exactly what they want, but got it; so easily, too.
I remember being in the car with you on the way to class one night, I think it was when we began the Tufts agreement, and saying something along the lines of "I hope we both get what we want, and if not I hope we go down together."
You know you're deserving, I know you're deserving, and so does everyone else. I honestly think, though, when it comes down to it, everyone ends up where they're supposed to be. It's times like these I believe in fate. I hope you're happy wherever you are.

[esachicaloca]

I didn't at all intend to make you feel guilty; I really do believe you got what you deserve.

I guess I believe that whole fate thing, too. It's just that there are still choices and since none of them was my first choice I don't know what to choose. I dont want to do something I'm not supposed to do. But I don't know what I'm supposed to do.

Time will tell, I suppose.

[sammy_k]

Then maybe going for a visit would be good for you.

I think you need to consider who YOU are to help you figure out which sort of environment would be best for you. Maybe that will help. Think about the Katie that's on the inside, not what's down on paper.

[metalboy]

you're stressing now, but once you actually get into school and get the ball rolling, you won't be able to picture yourself anywhere else, and you won't care to be anywhere else.

and if you end up at UF, go you. UF can pretty much be anything you want it to be. snooty ivy league-type snobs, coked up louis vuitton sorority girls, shoeless stoned hippies, random weird awkward honors kids, and normal people like you and i - it's all here.

on top of that, what you do in college matters so much more than what college you go to.

also, if you go to UF, it'll be free, and then you can use that as collateral to get your parents to buy you cool shit or let you go cool places.

p.s. i'm workin at the gap during the summer when i'm not in spain.

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[esachicaloca]

i know, i'm looking foward to starting school for exactly that reason. I was really excited when i got my acceptance's, it's just lame that they had to be overshadowed by rejections.

i'm coming to visit uf either in 2 or 3 weeks, depending on when/if you guys go to atl to see ms dolph.

you're right. it does. and i think i plan on doing alot. lol.

that is true; i've thought about it and i'm weighing my options.

ps-- i know i heard. I'm excited. :o)

[meggielaugh]

Hi. I don't really have any smart consoling words, cause I'm bad at that. But just thought I'd remind you that I was in your shoes this time last year, and now I am here and I am happy. Just know that no matter where you end up, things will work out for the best.

[esachicaloca]

i know you were here last year, and i love you for it. thinking of you and doug and how disappointed you were and how well adjusted you both are now was really a very big comfort to me.

I'm almost over the rejected feeling. Now I'm excited to decide where I'm going. eek.

[teenychica187]

whereever you go i know you will make it your own and make it the best you can, and things happen for a reason sometimes not what we wanted but in the end youll look back on it and say yes that was what was best for me.