My first post

[escapedeve]

I've been meaning to get around to making one of these, I know I'm a little (a few years) late. But, now's as good a time as any. So much has happened lately, and I don't know what to do with myself because of it. Most days I'm so numb, but others... like tonight... everything hurts

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[escapedeve]

Thank you. I really do appreciate it.

[escapedeve]

Thank you so much halin0r. I worry so much about coming off like a whiner. But then there's someone to comes along and lets me know that what's happened isn't right, and I have every reason to whine about it. So thank you.

Your not alone

[aussiebeck]

Hey just want to give you a big hug sooo ----> Hug
I happen to stubble across your jornal, and for the first time I felt I wasn't alone.
I have recently just recoverd from the loneliness as you. I have lost my best friend of 7 years (I still don't understand why she hates me), and the newest friend I had comminted suicide.
So I no longer have any friends and the lost of my friend Anthoney still kills me.

But anyway enough of the sob story. I would like to friend you if that's ok. I find friending people very serious as I've been hurt in the past. But something tells me you'll be a nice person to get to know.

I would like to thank you for making me feel less alone in the world. Soo I hope to read more of your posts in the future.

P.S Writing things down on LJ will help you beleive me!

*hugs*

A friend in common

Re: Your not alone

[escapedeve]

Thank you Aussie. And I will be adding you back. I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your friends. I really hope that it works out for you. *Big hugs back*

[garzaeve]

I am new to this so I don't know if my last comment went through lol. I don't see it so I will write a new one !

Just remember that no feeling lasts forever. Yesterday, today, maybe even, tomorrow may suck and u may not be able to believe that the pain, hurt, emptiness, self blame, all the ugly thoughts and feelings do go away.
I noticed u said u tried prayer and it's not working! Prayer isn't answered in the way we want it be, sometimes it's answered with opportunities . If you pray for strength u might not get strength but an opportunity to be strong . If you ask for husband, he is not going to knock on ur door. You may just get an opportunity to meet someone . What I'm trying to say is I have been in a bad situation and left alone with no place to go and no parents or family around . That was 11 Years ago and I have over came it and I am doing good. I have had those feeling and cried my self to sleep asking why! Feeling like nobody cared! Just remember god does

When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through

[escapedeve]

Thank you for your kind words. I want to be clear though, I did not mean that my prayers are not being answered. I have faith that God is with me, and that he will use my situation to make me a better person. What I meant though, was that whenever I try to pray I get distracted. I can't keep my mind clear enough to focus on my prayers. I would love to be one of those people who can sit and talk to God for hours, and I was at one time, but now I can't seem to stay on track.