I had hoped (I think we both hoped) that I was finally strong enough to look at this situation as you do.
I am still letting us down.
I'm sorry.

I got a toy from my cereal box this morning,
and even though it isn't a toy I like, or even a toy I enjoy,
the fact that is was there had me smiling.

I feel like I'm starting over from nothing,
again.

I can wait
I can wait
I can sit wondering what in world you think about
I don't think I'm ever gonna figure it out

After all the alcohol, the pretty words that devolve down to slurs
and drunken shouts,
I don't think I'm ever gonna figure it out
It's like some wild last frontier
you never know what kind of fight's gonna appear
That once begun can't be won ( Read more... )

God has pity on kindergarten children.
He has less pity on school children.
And on grownups he has no pity at all,
he leaves them alone,
and sometimes they must crawl on all fours...
Yehuda Amichai

bubbly brain and a few days left to go.
me minus the parts my body has spent the
last nineteen years building.
plus no solid food, and more slouchy thoughts.

Not to mention the hole in my ceiling
and the lack of power which has caused
everything in the freezer to melt,
and everything in the fridge to go bad.

Sun, sun, sun, stay with me
don't go behind the clouds
I know that you'll go down
but while it's day,
let your light hit me cause if I lose you now
I fear I could bow out
and I don't know where I'm going to
when I get there,
I'll send for you and I'll know when I see it,
but be patient,
I swear I'll come through

so ride, ride, ride, ride your pony
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I am such a fool.

I just want to sleep forever
until you wake me up

You were no ordinary drain on her defenses
And she was no ordinary girl
Oh, Inverted World
If every moment of our lives
Were cradled softly in the hands of some strange and gentle child
I'd not roll my eyes so.