that fucking bridge gets me every time.
the city looks beautiful at sunset.

i feel more sure about the way i am feeling but at the same time scared...always scared.

i cant even figure out words.
i really cant deal with this room.

im glad he is moving out.

i guess this is rebuilding ( Read more... )

im trying to remain positive because this is really fucking hard. im really scared but im not sure of what, and since i left valencia i have been had a stomach ache. its good to see the dog,and today i wake up early and weed the garden and figure out what to actually do with it ( Read more... )

my heart is in so many fucking pieces and i dont know...
i want to stay in this place forever and just ride around with these kids and keep the crushes im feeling and never leave.. my heart is a fucking mess, my head is ok right now but i know it will catch up so soon...
im scared of whats to come, im scared to go home , im scared of him...

this is my new curse ( Read more... )

jen is coming over.. how do i live without her? really? its gonna be so weird to spend another month together and then go away for god knows how long without seeing her and without her being that phonecall away or a quick drive.. gah ( Read more... )

im in philly right now, its been so good to hang out with old friends and just have a chill time... last night sarah nh and i went swimming in the resoviour (sp?) with matt, mouse, james, and rachel. it was a really good time, the first time this summer that i had been swimming for real and not in a pool. it made me miss muhlton falls and the sandy ( Read more... )

im nervous, but its like im getting really good at distinguishing these real feelings for the ones that are oh so fleeting ( Read more... )

shits about to get real hard ( Read more... )