I adressed this letter to "dear father ( Read more... )

And so I fall. I don't want to feel this small. You know I just can't handle this, handle this at all. And I just fall. I let my heartbeat drop. I faulter as the music stops and you watch me as I stall, and wonder when I.....

Tonight I ran. I ran from my house all the way down the street. I ran around the corner and kept running. I ran through the gate and on the blvd. The whole time listening to Misery Business. I'm tired of looking the way I do. Out of shape. I'm making a change to that. Starting tonight. When I finally got home, I threw up. It was horrible. It just ( Read more... )

Recently, I've been thinking a lot about what I want to do as a career. Next year I should graduate and then I'll start teaching High School Art. That should be a great career and I know I will love doing it. What I really want is to be an actor. More than anything. I only want to do it if I can do something positive and meaningful, otherwise I don ( Read more... )

I screamed out. "Why don't you change?" You said the same thing back. And so we never did.

Haven't posted in a while. That's it.

I haven't known you for that long, but when we met we talked for four hours straight. I felt an instand connection with you. Even when I was gone we managed to keep in contact throughout the entire day. I told you how much I liked you atleast seven times a day. I realized that nothing could ever happen between us. I'm sorry if I hurt you, but I ( Read more... )

I have had sooo much fun this weekend! I got to see my favorite cousins and my adorable baby nephew. I also got to see my crazy friend Patrick who almost died in a car accident a couple years ago. For some reason he looks like Justin Timberlake now. Anyways today is my last day. Can't wait to get back and see all my friends and family. I took a ( Read more... )

I decided not to pursue anything with the girl that I like. I've just decided to let her decide. I don't want to be the "other" person, even if it feels right. Anyways everything is going really good. Me and Jon and Brad are hanging out again. A lot. Well, not a lot but more I guess. So that's all for now.

I've been kind of happy, but at the same time I've been not so happy. There's this girl. A good friend that I've known since HS. Then she moved away for a couple of years. Now she's back and she goes to UCF. This girl is beautiful in everyway. She had a beautiful spirit and a mesmorizing smile. I once had an opportunity to be with this girl. Only ( Read more... )