Deep into that darkness peering; long I stood there, wondering, fearing
(The witching hour of night, Saturday Aug. 8th)
(The Dormouse)
Sleep is not coming to visit me tonight so it seems.....
I was in no mood to stay any longer than necessary tonight. The actress hadn't learned the lines well enough to smile, celebrate Miao's good fortune, stay and be bright and sparkling. No, even with the issue between Glass and I resolved, I still felt forced and akward. And if you can't put on a good performance, one shouldn't take the stage.
And stranger still, there's no real reason for my melancholy mood.
Although I felt truly sorry for leaving so soon (and I will have to make that up to Miao) I was almost relieved when I was waving my goodbyes and heading back down the darkened alley, hand in hand with my Lucien. Home was a most welcome sight. He offered to stay, and truth be told... I wanted him to. It seems we get so very little time alone together, and half of that is spent fighting or apologizing. But no, it is Miao's night, and I won't take that or Lucien from her tonight. Kiss him, and send him on his way. I'll see him by tomorrow afternoon, and maybe we can do somthing fun together. That though cheers me up, after after putting a "Closed Satutrday" sign on the front door, I go about the mini rituals I sometimes do before bed. Long bubble bath, moisturize everything to keep my skin soft, cookies and tea, and a book read by candlelight while curled up in bed.
That's normally relaxing enough to knock me out cold.
Not tonight.
Sleep remains elusive. Although I blow out the candle and slide under my softest blanket, I can't seem to stop tossing and turning. Even the cami top and boy shorts I usually wear to bed seem annoying and confining tonight. I growl, get out of bed, and open the window part way. I sigh as the night breeze rushes in and caresses me. I stand there for a few minutes, just staring out into the dark....
Slip back into bed, try to get comfortable, and close my eyes. Maybe now......
(Closed)
(WARNING! adult content ahead, quite possibly triggery)