The Slammer

[estherchaya]

I probably should have posted this earlier, but I've really been too out of it to write a coherent post. So better late than never

Comments

[batya_d]

Oh gosh what a nightmare :(

I hope things start to turn in your favor for the rest of this pregnancy!!

[estherchaya]

I doubt things are going to improve much, but I *am* glad the end is in sight! Only a couple more months to go (unless I have My way about it, in which case, only a month or so to go!)

[hannahsarah]

I've been all kinds of busy lately so I've been in and out of LJ land for a while.

I'm sorry to hear that you've had such an unpleasant vacation, and I hope you get home soon!

I don't think I could survive pregnancy. My biggest panic trigger is nausea. I get carsick if I look down for more than 30 seconds. I hate throwing up so much - it's the main reason I never developed a drinking problem in high school. One sip too many and I'd be praying for a swift and merciful death.

[estherchaya]

not all women throw up in pregnancy, fortunately. But even of those, only about 1% have hyperemesis (and of THAT subset, only a very small percentage are still NPO after 20 weeks - I'm just lucky!).

At any rate, you certainly would have survived pregnancy - but I make no promises that you would have enjoyed it (I sure don't!).

[thefourthvine]

This sounds so completely and utterly horrible; I cannot imagine that anyone would expect you to call this a joyous experience. And, actually, if you did, it could only be because of some novel condition like Antepartum Reality Disconnect. (For which you would be treated with yet another horrible medication and yet another prolonged hospital stay.)

I - hope for the best for you and #5? I've been following this saga just long enough to know that hoping for everything to be suddenly miraculously better is not realistic. Instead I will hope that things are the best that they can be for both of you, and that there are no lasting ill effects for anyone.

[estherchaya]

Thanks so much - I'm really okay, just very tired of this. I feel incredibly guilty for having worked so hard to get pregnant and still not managing to enjoy the experience. This pretty much sucks. But ultimately, the only thing that matters is the baby on the other side of it.

You're right - things aren't going to get miraculously better, but at least I know that there's an end in sight!

[estherchaya]

actually, you almost have to laugh - the level of crap that I've had to take in this pregnancy is truly absurd! I couldn't make this stuff up! I told a rabbi friend of mine that much of this was G-d's cruel joke on me, and my friend responded, "Well, actually it sounds less like this being G-d's joke on you and more like you're the punchline!"

He had a good point.

And you, too, have a good point - someday, whether I'm laughing or not, I'll get to look back on this.

[skatured]

I wish I had more to say that "I'm thinking of you" or there was something I could do than wish good vibes for this pregnancy to get easier or just stay status quo.